I'm not that strong

Why can't things just be simple,
Fixed with thread, string, and thimble?
Your name, your face, your feel, I'll never forget,
And I'll probably forever feel like shit.

But I can't be the reason your held back,
I can't guide you offtrack.
I'm so sorry I have failed you for so long,
I doubt I'll be able to stay away, I'm not that strong.

Encircling

When the pillow meets my head,
I envision a sillohette,
Meeting me halfway between,
My life and my dream.

So unfamiliar, reminds of a fable,
Something perculiar seems to enable
Me to reach out past,
My own grasp to you.

Some say I've gone deranged,
I'd agree if I hadn't changed,
But now the rational is everything but true,
This case has gone national to find you.

I run top speed trying to feel,
Taking heed, but always on my heel,
Only to fall face first to impress,
Look back and taste success.

From the beginning you were always here,
While I crusade in search of my dear,
Thinking somethings lost on me,
Because it's not where it's supposed to be.

When the start meets its end,
The part that greets will mend,
For every cusp only brings about a new route,
In faith and trust, the path will pave it's own way out.