Stranglehold

This time doesn't feel right,
It is not the same,
The hope of the night,
Still hasn't came.

This feeling has never amounted to much,
To no one does it bring bliss,
Nothing from me is worth such,
The heart without your kiss.

Love ties the heart,
In the shape of a noose,
Either it makes a start,
Or leaves it without use.

This rope is death and life,
Strength this rope may behold,
Cuts like a knife,
In this stranglehold.

But that is the weight that I carry,
Knowing my love isn't worth a sound,
It is the same weight that will be used to bury,
Me in the ground.

Enfolding

Watch the end enfold me,
All is lost in my grasp,
Nothing left to see,
But a lonely heart collapse.

There is nothing left to heal,
Just a shell without escape,
Only pain to feel,
As inside I break.

Fall to me knees,
Hopeless and shattered,
I have ran out of pleas,
Beaten and battered.

And I fade away,
The emptiness has no pity,
As the blue turns to gray,
And I lose all amity.

The world has come crashing down,
Taking me down in flame,
Push me back underground,
Finding my hope doing just the same.

The last of thy strength,
Drained to try for you,
I know you will go to a great length,
To try and pull me through.

Tougher to Breath

We leave a trail,
To find our way back,
From the port we had set sail,
But what happened to the track?

The crumbs were lost among the wave,
Lost my hope and name,
Swimming in my own grave,
Never will feel the same.

Why can I not cope,
I can not seem to believe,
What happened to all that hope,
Why is it getting tougher and tougher to breath?

What happened to the blue skies,
They are hidden by an overcast of naught,
Blanketed by tears and cries,
In the air war is being fought.

How I miss the way you said it'd be,
All this reverie starts to stumble,
The sand that held you and me,
All the dreams and hopes just crumble.

Why can I not cope,
I can not seem to believe,
What happened to all that hope,
Why is it getting tougher and tougher to breath?

Reality check in swing,
The door will never open,
Feel the sting,
The heart left broken.

Once Upon a December

Memories make it so tough,
To just get up and leave,
When bound by chains of like and love,
Reality is so difficult to believe.

He seemed great in his prime,
Old habits used to be the way,
But all this used time,
You need to throw away.

So maybe some time near,
There will be no reason to hide,
You'll have nothing to fear,
As you conquered the once rising tide.

Hung up your gun,
This war is yours,
There is not reason to run,
When light is beyond the doors.

Just always remember,
The things you have been through,
Once upon a December,
This was not too much for you.

Consumed by the Lost

Lay and don't say a word,
Tears run down your cheek,
As the world turns absurd,
And you grow weak.

Even the softest pillow,
Seems to not break your fall,
He had you at hello,
Now on your knees you crawl.

And as the sirens blare,
This war is far from won,
The bleeding heart you bear,
Makes you think you're done.

The walls are coming in,
And you can't stand to breath,
Drenched in regret again,
Everything once cherished begins to leave.

But over time the pain goes,
And better you feel,
With any way the wind blows,
The scars always heal.

Our Love, Will Be Forever

It's cold outside I know,
But here it's not,
More pure than the snow,
This feels a little hot.

It's dark outside I see,
But here is a little lighter,
The love is enough for me,
To make everything a little warmer, a little brighter.

And our love, will be forever,
And we will always rise, we rise together,
And this fire, will keep on burning,
And this world, always keeps on turning.

So let's conquer, conquer together,
We know, that it is now or never,
These ties, we will never sever,
Because our love, will be forever.

Pay the Price

Just walk down the hall,
Tears in your eyes,
Got your back against the wall,
But don't feel like your out of tries.

They may beat you down,
With words so strong,
Your tears may make you drown,
But they were so wrong.

I don't want you to pay the price,
Your esteem shouldn't be sold,
Passing you by would be cold as ice,
To leave you without something to hold.

For moments you feel lesser,
Your skin is collapsing in,
We all feel the pressure,
Time and time again.

But if we let it give,
Leave us blind and deaf,
What will be your reason to live,
When in your arms there's nothing left?

I don't want you to pay the price,
Your esteem shouldn't be sold,
Passing you by would be cold as ice,
To leave you without something to hold.

Randolph the Black Pimp Reindeer

You know Manson and Stalin and Laden and Nixon,
Bonnie and Clyde and Dahmer and Simpson.
But do you recall,
A single infamous reindeer at all?

Randolph the black pimp reindeer,
Had so many fine does.
And if you ever saw them,
Your anatomy would grow.

All of the other reindeer,
Used to think that he was lame.
They all tried to cheat poor Randolph,
Never paying for his dames.

Then one cloudy summer eve,
Santa came to play.
"Randolph, Mrs. Claus ain't so tight,
Can I do one of your bitches tonight?"

Then all the reindeer loved him
They gladly paid the fee,
Randolph the black pimp reindeer,
Now it hurts everyone to pee!

6 Months of Love

Today we celebrate you and me,
Best friends we have come to be,
It has been six whole months together,
Though it feels like it has been forever.

Now we are stronger, me and you,
All this time our faith has grew,
Tested time and time again,
This way you always have a way to make my head spin.

Though occasionally our relationship may struggle,
But in the end we always find reason to snuggle,
Because our hearts are inner connected,
A love that our affection has protected.

When we meet and I am there,
I can't wait to finally play with your hair,
Such an anticipation to live a dream,
All these things so perfect they seem.

Until then I will wait,
A place for it to stay in my heart I will create,
I await from now on every day,
For my one and only Toni-Raye. <3