My Reflection

These feelings we will never share,
No matter how hard I try for you they are never there.
Why must my heart always feel so cold,
Why is it your hand I can never hold?

My future is looking even more bleak,
With each second my heart becomes even more weak.
I really wish that I could change,
That the way I am I could rearrange.

I know what I want to be,
But that person I will never see.
Who I want to be could not ever be clearer,
But the truth is I will always just be the boy within the mirror.

A Happy Picture

I will paint you a picture,
Of what may never exist,
You and me will be the fixture,
As I paint with my wrist.

It is so bloody and torn,
The skin you can't see,
Just like my heart so worn,
Broken inside of me.

And with each bit painted,
I lose a bit more of myself,
This picture becomes tainted,
With my heart on the shelf.

A picture painted in blood,
Where I am happy with you,
Bring on the flood,
For I have to be happy somewhere too.

Burning Inside Me

I hate feeling like this,
I know that I should not feel this way,
For the reasons not there is an endless list,
But yet they never fail to stay.

These feelings thrive within,
This fire is far too hot,
My ability to hold it back is wearing thin,
It is much harder than I ever thought.

I am scared to death,
That I will ruin it all,
These feelings leave me without breath,
I can't learn to walk until I learn to crawl.

My balance is gone,
I can no longer stand,
I will not see another dawn,
If I cannot hold your hand.

I am so pathetic,
To you I will never be more,
With your smile so aesthetic,
That will shine evermore.

I am just another one,
That is not worth holding,
Might as well grab the gun,
And let it give me scolding.

I'm so sick of trying,
To seem like I am happy too,
Truly inside I am crying,
Longing to hold you.

Will you please just notice me,
I wish I would just cross your mind,
The waves are now dragging me to sea,
By you I know I will be left behind.

I know I will always love you,
More than I will ever be able to show,
Living without you is hard to do,
So much harder than you will ever know.....

Drink It Away

Take a drink,
It will soothe your pain,
You never did think,
That you were sane.

As the bullets pass you by,
And you live to tell your story,
You drop to your knees to ask "why?",
As you take another drink from your forty.

You're still alive,
But you don't want to be,
You don't live but just survive,
And for mercy you fall to your knees.

You collapse and pass out,
Face down on the floor,
In your breathe you can smell the doubt,
You can't take it anymore.

You tried to drink away your problems,
Just to wake up worse than you began,
The answer is within how you solve them,
And without fixes you can.

A Home Complete

Welcome home,
My long lost friend,
The streets you may comb,
You will never comprehend.

Since when has home felt so unfamiliar,
Even when filled with those you once loved,
What is missing you can't figure,
And the thing amiss you have not dubbed.

The twinkle of your eyes,
As tears are born,
This family is lies,
And the lost you mourn.

This may be your family,
But they never did understand,
Their ignorance expressed awfully,
Puts this knife in your hand.

But out of nowhere,
Your hand feels a tug of resistance,
I am suddenly there,
And your face brightly glistens.

This home is complete,
This is how it is supposed to feel,
I am the ground beneath your feet,
And this time it is real.

Will You Be Waiting?

Do you remember the past,
When we used to be so innocent,
We were moving so fast,
Before we began our descent.

I remember the smile you wore,
And how it twisted my tongue,
I truthfully always wanted more,
On your line I was strung

When I looked in your eyes,
I was lost in seduction,
You saw right through my disguise,
It never served its function.

You had it first,
For you knew how to make it right,
While searching for the thirst,
To drive my heart that night.

Now you just ignore,
What you know I possess,
To you I am nothing more,
Then the same friend of loneliness.

And the glimpse of hope,
Still flickers in the distance,
To clean this wound takes more than soap,
But takes the peak of my resistance.

So when I come running over the horizon,
Will you wait with arms wide open?
I would gladly rest within,
And say the three words soft spoken.

What We Have Become

When we finally realize,
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
Our personalities turning numb.

We've lost ourselves in the cadence,
And we are missing the picture,
Living with nothing but impatience,
It is within our nature.

We still don't have a clue,
The way we truly feel,
Behind our facades we hide whats true,
All that is real.

We all must ask,
Is this what we wanted?
Will we take off our mask,
Or just keep living lives haunted?

When we finally realize,
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
And perhaps, we will finally be one.

Mission Incomplete

Running away from who we are,
We take to the street,
We are chasing the stars,
A mission incomplete.

We try to escape our shadows,
But our route they repeat,
We can fight in epic battles,
But it still remains a mission incomplete.

We can try and evade,
Our enemy so discreet,
We can hide in a masquerade,
Yet it is a mission incomplete.

Knocking on the door,
Of past defeat,
My reflection so sore,
From a mission incomplete.

For you can never out run yourself,
Your shadow you never will beat,
It does not matter your stealth,
Forever this will be a mission incomplete.

What Happened to Us?

It is with the lack of love,
In which my heart sinks,
I know I'm not enough,
To even make you think.

I'm just drowning,
In the air I breathe,
You ask why I'm frowning,
It is better if you just leave.

You used to actually try,
You made me feel real,
But now without you I cry,
You just wanna break me before I heal.

Your face,
I'll never forget,
Running in place,
Will not cleanse my regret.

I blew my chance,
I let you slip away,
This is my last stance,
Before I fall prey.

If Erasing Them Could

Would these words be said,
If a wall were in between,
These words are vagrants in my head,
Ideas so obscene.

These reoccurring thoughts,
The haunting of my memories,
The usefulness of naughts,
Feeding this disease.

If erasing them could,
I could feel alive,
If erasing them would,
I would be able to thrive.

These thoughts do more then stress,
It isn't simple to understand,
The ideas they present depress,
As I hang onto the glory at my right hand.

These are the days of my surrender,
As the glory tears me apart,
For I am my own offender,
And I'm sentenced to the removal of my heart.

If erasing them could,
I could be free to feel,
If erasing them would,
I would have my numbness heal.

Now my mind goes up in smoke,
Slowly fading away,
On my will I choke,
And my heart decays.

Is this the solution,
Or is it just another question,
I know it as my execution,
But is this my intention?

And if erasing them could,
I could move on without having to cry,
And if erasing them would,
I would go on without having to die.

This is your breakdown Brandon. It's looking in your face. Harmony is gone. Who do you run to now? Where are you going to hide?

A Bridge's Collapse

Build this bridge alone,
Collapsing beneath,
We should have known,
We couldn't hold on by the skin of our teeth.

We have eyes,
But we don't see,
These maleficent lies,
Death has come to set us free.

We crave this pain,
We aren't scared of death,
We are turning insane,
And don't care if we have our breath.

We are descendants from Hell,
Demons so demented,
Our identities we will never tell,
For we are souls unrelented.

They're coming for me,
This is the end of my time,
Today is the death of beauty,
And I will pay for existing is my crime.

A Love Ever Longed

They want to live together,
But these pieces never did fit,
They said they'd be forever,
But this part I never did get.

She is out every night,
Looking her best,
He hides from the light,
With blood and tears on his chest,
Blood and tears on his chest.

From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.

But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.

He sees her in town,
Another guy in her hand,
His life spirals down,
And his life he can't stand.

He takes off a run,
She tries to catch up,
She wants to be his one,
But she is out of luck,
Out of luck.

From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.

But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.

He slits his wrist,
He has lost it all,
He begs not to exist,
From the roof he does fall.

His blood covers the ground,
It is like he never was born,
Lost in the sound,
His body she does mourn,
She does mourn.

From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.

But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.

Now she cries,
Herself to sleep,
She lived within lies,
But his heart she did keep.

She had always longed,
But now there is nothing left,
His life she had wronged,
And now he's without breath,
Without breath.

Now her bed is half cold,
The fault is her own,
His heart she had sold,
And now she knows how it feels to be alone.

Collapsing

I have been left behind,
This building set a flame,
Only blood you will find,
And only I am to blame.

One I had trusted,
Pushed the blade deeper,
The blade had thrusted,
Into the back of this sleeper.

But there is justice,
In the act of betrayal,
We can explain if you let us,
For this wound is fatal.

And it is the answer to our prayer,
This red that consumes us all,
Hell's own soothsayer,
Guiding us as we fall.

And this crutch once existent,
Collapses in on me,
Only one remains persistent,
And she is the only reason to be.

It is over time,
That I learn who is there,
So I write this rhyme,
To remind me who actually may care.

A Step Away

Open my eyes,
To blinding light,
As the darkness dies,
In the dead of the night.

This fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.

And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.

I want to be with you,
Live together,
Faith in you has grew,
And I want it to last forever.

You probably don't feel the same,
I am but a friend,
You don't want to play that game,
And only friendly love you will lend.

Yet I long,
To hold you for awhile,
Is it so wrong,
To want to make you smile?

And this fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.

And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.

I will wait,
A life time if I must,
And defy all the hate,
Just to earn your trust.

I will face suppression,
For all they may misconstrue,
A life's lesson.
To prove my love to you.

We Live in the Night's Sky

Under this crescent,
A moon of this once barren land,
Lives a soul so effervescent,
Who helps me stand.

Her voice is so soothing,
As the world comes crashing down,
Whose words are so moving,
Without even making a sound.

Just words inscribed within her eyes,
Telling me that I'm worth more,
Telling me there is more to life than lies,
Giving me something to dream for.

She makes everything better,
It is harder than you know,
But when we are together,
She makes it so easy to let go.

And under these stars,
We hold hands for we know,
They all are ours,
And with their light we grow.

And when they shoot across the sky,
We know that it is for the best,
For the loss of one is not worth a cry,
But so much less.

All that matters is that of a sign,
The one we hold through the night,
So the two of us can watch the stars shine,
And when together we know all will be alright.

HAII THUR, IT'S HARMONY.
YEAAA.
I EDITED HIS BLOG.
I HOPE IT'S PRETTY ENOUGH.
I WAS OCD-ING OVER IT.
I'M NOT QUITE SURE WHY THIS IS IN CAPS.

Bye bye. <3

A Calming Breeze

The wind whispers in my ear,
With its calming breeze,
Telling me to look in the mirror,
And be at ease.

So I stare into the reflection,
And see someone else with me,
Having not a recollection,
Of what I may see.

She dances in this moving portrait,
To the rhythm of my heart pounding away,
And at that moment my love I forfeit,
To the smile pulling me her way.

And as the blood stopped pumping,
For but a second,
My feelings were clumping,
And the light, it beckoned.

So I chase this wonder,
And bring her into my view,
For she is my thunder,
And she is you.

A Losing Game

I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.

You're the first one,
That's had faith in me,
Could this game be won,
Could we be meant to be?

I dream all day,
Happy I feel,
I want to say,
Can this be real?

For I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.

I am desperately awaiting,
For you to say,
I'm not the only one relating,
Whose heart is drifting away.

Lost in your eyes,
Trapped in their shine,
Will I take off my disguise,
And ask you to be mine?

And I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.

Hand in Hand

I can feel the burn,
Of the light from the sun,
I am beginning to learn,
There is no use to run.

I can race the sunset,
But I will never win,
Sometimes it is better to forget,
The darkness I once lived in.

For the light,
Always will shine,
And their is no sin to fight,
Within this state of mind.

And until the day I die,
I will stand,
You will be my alibi,
To live hand in hand.

As Long As We Can Be Together

In the still of the night,
We all are caught in the silence,
Under a moon so bright,
To the darkness we show our defiance.

We dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.

We break down these walls,
Put in attempt to keep us apart,
But under our love it falls,
For you can not sever our heart.

They are synchronized,
To the rhythm of each others,
For to us they are prized,
Hearts between lovers'.

For they can not contain,
This feeling so strong,
Only dust remains,
As we live a love ever long.

For we dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.

To Whom It May Concern

In the cadence of your heart,
I slowly float away,
On your wings I depart,
To our own little cay.

A place of paradise,
Where together we live,
And love comes without a price,
And our affection we give.

Her eyes sparkle in the sun,
As she waits patient,
Into her arms I run,
To greet her smile so radiant.

And time just stops,
For I have awaited this moment,
And slowly a tear drops,
For I thought my heart was dormant.

But I was mistaken,
I found love,
I was far from forsaken,
But rather sent to the heavens above.

And to whom it may concern,
I am no longer a suitor,
I have come to learn,
I live for Tudor.

If Love Exists

The shadows call from yesterday,
The past returns far too frequent,
Trying to take my future away,
But my attention it needn't.

I've moved on,
From this time I once knew,
Those feelings are already gone,
And my future is painted without you.

If loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.

My heart is my own,
Once again,
You turned it to stone,
But I turned back your sin.

Go on and try,
You are no longer my friend,
It doesn't matter how you cry,
It won't rewrite the unwritten end.

And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.

I will never let this get to me,
Or this skin plagued by stain,
For with time I fade,
But the memories remain.

But they will not haunt me,
I am glad this time has passed,
And today I decree,
Nothing is built to last.

And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.

Rest in Peace

Rest in peace,
My life's ambition,
Break the leash,
My flat-lined inhibition.

Rest in peace,
My dearest will,
You slowly decrease,
Soon vanity will fill.

Rest in peace,
My forgotten emotion,
Your want may cease,
And isn't worth my devotion.

So as I say goodbye,
To friend and soul,
I prepare to die,
As life has took its toll.

So rust in peace,
My long lost reason,
May I decease,
For my life is treason.

The Best Parts of This Have Come and Gone

You still don't understand,
All that you've done,
All this trouble at hand,
And how this war can't be won.

You made your own Hell,
As have I,
The difference is simple to tell,
In mine to escape I try.

You don't seen to want out,
You just want to pull me back in,
That is what this is all about,
It is your sin.

I don't care about you,
I am not that pathetic,
And that will always be true,
For you are so fake and aesthetic.

You can hold it against me,
I'm still stronger without you,
You need to see,
That you need to learn to let go on cue.

I've let you walk all over me,
Enough in the past,
I won't let it be,
I won't let it last.

For you mean nothing,
All you cause is pain,
You don't mean something,
And your attempt to argue is vain.

So, You Think You're the Rightgeous One?

I never thought you'd lose yourself,
But apparently your conscience can not be found,
I hope you care not for your health,
For it is far from being safe and sound.

I've given you plenty of chances,
But you just pat the knife deeper,
Caught up in your own selfish trances,
And your hill will only grow steeper.

Do you feel this hole,
A soon open bleeding sore,
To pay for the time you have stole,
As you have hit the floor.

All you can be,
Is a stupid whore,
And to me,
You are nothing more.

Everything I Fear

The pain is all-consuming,
All what I once knew,
These lies I am presuming,
Creates this desolate view.

A walk down a path once known,
To a place I used to love,
Now it feels so empty and alone,
And in the sorrow I drown there of.

I think I remember this,
Feeling once left behind,
Hidden in this poisoning kiss,
In which the darkness turned me blind.

This place is so haunting,
Lurking within each and every tear,
The memories are so taunting,
Wanting me to forget that I was here.

All this abhorrence I do receive,
Must break away,
If I didn't want to leave,
All I had to do was stay.

But I couldn't even do that right,
I ran from what I held dear,
I ran from the light,
And now what I love is everything I fear.

When Everything Fades

Why are we still here,
Arguing problems of yesterday?
Why do I still hold you dear,
After you put me through all this dismay?

It doesn't matter now,
For you are here in my time of need,
And to you I bow,
And leave this for you to read.

When there comes a time,
When you feel the pressure,
Just turn to this rhyme,
To see how you I treasure.

You are a luminous heroine,
Within this burning utopia,
The one who sets my head a spin,
Within this world of anthropophobia.

For when everything falls,
We will stand,
And when everything stalls,
I will be there to hold your hand.

And when everything fades,
We will shine strong,
Throw out the blades,
And we will live ever long.