The Love I'll Bring

Your nose is facing congestion,
Your head is dealing with a migraine,
Let me make you a suggestion,
Let me take care of your pain.

I may not be a medical doctor,
And I may not make you better,
But I will still be your proctor,
But I will be your go-getter.

When you are under the weather,
When you aren't feeling your best,
I'll be there to hold you together,
I'll be there to help you rest.

I'll arrive upon your cue,
I'll arrive in a foul swoop,
I'll bring medicine to you,
I'll bring you hot soup.

I may not make you perfectly well,
I may not bring you perfect health,
But I swear you will be able to tell,
In my care and comfort, you'll find wealth.

Not the kind with money,
No not the kind with gold,
But the kind you can call honey,
The kind that shuts out the cold.

The kind that warms you,
Heats you from the inside,
The kind you hope to find for true,
The love I'll bring to your side.

Evolve

My form seems ill-equipped,
It can not seem to fill your needs,
So I place this old me in a crypt,
To become someone which feeds;

It still will be very sweet,
But it won't seek to influence decisions,
A step closer to being complete,
From your matters there will be division.

When you spill shame on the floor,
I will turn my head away,
I won't affect your choice anymore,
All that stops today.

So I lay my head down as I evolve,
A new me will awake from this choice,
Your problems he will never solve,
For I have taken away his voice.

Dream's Composition

When you've grown tired of it all,
Laid yourself out on your bed,
Where dream's composition will call,
While you lay down your sweet head 

Tonight you sleep,
In hopes of a new day,
In your dreams you keep,
The light that guides our way.

That will lead us to solace,
And steer us towards comfort,
In the night they shall call on us,
On our own mission covert.

Here we are assigned,
To the people we want to see,
All inside your mind,
You learn with who you want to be.

When you awake none of it was real,
And the new day you hoped for is here,
But it is up to you to remember how you feel,
And to remember who it truly is you want so dear.

Good People

A good person isn't judged by perfection, nor by the number of mistakes they make.
They are judged by their will to make things right. Their will to admit to people when they messed up, to seek out redemption for what they have done. Sometimes it can be scary to have to tell someone something you aren't proud of. But good people do even though they know it might not end well for them. But at the end of the day, good people will be acknowledged, for even when they might lose something dear, they still do the right thing. And that takes guts. And it is the people who accept their punishment, who will rise from the rest, as true, good, people.

Gave You Something

How does it feel to be on your back,
To know that you've gave it away,
A salute to everything you had done,
Maybe next time you'll choose a different way.

You're trapped in your magical tale,
A fictional place which has became your game,
How didn't you see that it would bite you in the ass,
Now I watch you choke on the shame.

Well this is my complaint,
Why did you think it was right,
That was my world,
That you shattered tonight.

Well this is my hope,
But now it's all done,
We had a dream but you left it,
That was my girl, and she was the best one.

Now you whine it hurts so much,
But what can I do,
You acted on impulse,
You didn't think it through.

You took her away,
Thanks for nothing,
I miss the way she'd make me feel,
I hope this gave you something.

Perception is the Key

This is not the end,
It's just the beginning,
And can't you tell,
That this isn't pretend,
This isn't the ninth innning,
Can't you tell?

Your life isn't stopping,
Your friends aren't retreating,
And don't you know,
The sadness is dropping,
Your heart is still beating,
Don't you know?

The pain is going,
It won't bother you forever,
And can't you see,
The rain is slowing,
And we will be together,
Can't you see?

The tides are turning,
Mistakes in the light,
And don't you feel,
The fire's burning,
And the truth feels right,
Don't you feel?

Tell, know, see, feel,
Sense will help you choose,
And perception is the key,
That it is obvious what is real,
In order not to ever lose,
Perception is the key.

Slaughtering My Lamb

I always thought if I worked hard enough,
Love would find its way out of the rough,
And into my arms it would find home,
Into my heart it would roam.

I always thought it would feel so liberating,
For several silhouettes to be masquerading,
Through my ventricles and into the atrium,
But alas all I pour in is only an act of matyrdom.

Just me giving my life away,
Just you painting my insides grey,
Slaughtering my lamb to show all that I would do,
But in the end it doesn't mean what I hoped to you.

It's like I'm pouring all my blood down a drain,
Paying my dues yet the loan doesn't give me name,
Instead my arteries harden from the build up of grime,
A little false hope has turned into a huge waste of time.

While I am displacing tears for what should be forgotten,
The investment I've made is out spoiling rotten,
The purity is long since lost and ever spilling its worth upon the floor,
It's hands spread from five to seven to the devil's scepter it's opened the door.

And now it feels that all is lost,
With his heart being placed at high cost,
But this horse is in last place,
An all-in bet is dead to his disgrace.

I put my soul in this last ditch attempt,
For you to save me in an act to redempt,
The feeling that you threw under the bus,
All for someone else I knew I could never trust.

But another calls out your name from down the hall,
You've become a chew toy and he knows he has your all,
I'm on the failing cusp of what I have left and I have no where left to turn,
Will you save me from the hell you've thrown me into or just let me burn?

What did I do to deserve all of this,
Sure my mistakes have gone to piss,
But at least I care for you when you're in need,
Instead of just use you to cheat.

I tried so hard,
To be your trump card,
I've tried for so long,
To take you along.

But even after you had all I granted,
You threw away all you were handed,
Because what I have to offer is never enough,
A pretended interest of yours was just a bluff.

Why do I still want you so bad,
If you are something I never had,
Even when I have nothing left to give,
I still try to make you more, to spill every last drop of my life to live.

A Crack in the Surface

The aching minutes ticking away,
A change in direction towards a different day,
Leaving the path buried in the sand,
Throwing away the truth at hand.

The promises left unkept,
Have left this path unswept,
But it's just stubbornness holding us back,
The ever expanding crack.

It's all just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

Fighting our hearts against a strain,
Fighting the fire we can't contain,
We burn under the power we can't control,
Falling into our own black hole.

Hovering over the coal,
The smoldering ash gone cold,
Hoping for it to still glow from gray,
So it can become a torch to guide the way.

It's just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

We condemn each other to say we're right,
Bloody our knuckles to say we won the fight,
But under these smiles hides a frown,
All these endings are slowing us down.

We breath in the smoke,
The last of this hope that hasn't broke,
Looking to sweep away the sand from the end,
That has buried away our lost friend.

It's just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

A crack in the surface,
A crack in the surface of my heart,
A drop it can not survive,
A drop self-inflected,
To prove that what we thought was broken,
Was just a crack in the surface. 

Ignis Aurumque

Nunc tandem video
(Now I see at last)
Futurum esse in meam praeteritam.
(That the future is in my past.)
Tessellata caela sunt monstantes mihi
(Mosiac skies are showing me)
Quomodo timeam ne amor capiam me.
(How I am afraid that love will take me over)
Forsitan, transformabo.
(Maybe, I'll transform)

Trans caelum,
(Across the sky,)
Stellae correxerunt;
(The stars have aligned;)
Sunt figens ulterius quam habent aeternum ante.
(They are shooting farther than they have ever before)
Omnia tempora manserunt tamdiu;
(All this time has lasted so long)
Fio in ignis aurumque.
(I am becoming fire and gold.)

Fulmen in has alas,
(Lightning in these wings,)
Ardet me super,
(Burn me upwards)
Ad meliores res,
(To those greater things,)
Et nunc belligaro,
(And now I'm waging war,)
Aperire januam clausam.
(To open the door I closed.)

Trans caelum,
(Across the sky,)
Stellae correxerunt;
(The stars have aligned;)
Sunt figens ulterius quam habent aeternum ante.
(They are shooting farther than they have ever before)
Omnia tempora manserunt tamdiu;
(All this time has lasted so long)
Fio in ignis aurumque.
(I am becoming fire and gold.)

Shooting Stars

The moon was risen up in the sky,
A night worth recollecting another time,
Even after a year has passed me by,
I can still recite it so clearly in my mind.

A random encounter between two,
Both unknowing that anything would result,
After only a few hours faith in us grew,
For once nothing was at fault.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

It all started with two unnamed pets,
You named them Woody and Jesse,
A first impression which I'll never regret,
Never giving a chance to second guess me.

Twenty minutes after,
I broke down who you were,
The starting of a brand new chapter,
The birth of an all powerful cure.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

Than I left for a few hours,
To visit some friends from my past,
A encounter turned sour,
By awkwardness that ever lasts.

I came back disgusted and sent a text,
Hoping that you would answer me back,
I never guessed what would happen next,
I had no idea we would lay new tracks.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

Within three days we liked one another,
So quick had we found everything we each yearned,
We discovered solace in each other,
A new flame in ours started to burn.

Nineteen days later I asked for your hand,
And your mom interrupted,
My heartbeat was faster than I could stand,
I was so nervous when you said yes, my heart erupted.

That night the stars were shooting left and right,
Even farther than they did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

And even now when it has come and gone,
I'd never give up that time we spent,
Because for three months my heart was strong,
From a girl that to me was heaven sent.

You weren't perfect but no one is,
But I swear you were perfect for me,
And I hope you look back upon this,
And sometime, we can once again be.

Under the same moon we stand,
Even if hundreds of miles apart,
And still through the distance we will be holding hand,
Forever intertwined in our own hearts.

Watching these stars,
Shooting through the sky's heart,
Just like Cupid's arrow through ours,
Deeper in me then it was from the start.

11/12/2012

It's been a year since the best day,
And I still remember it so well,
I wish you could feel the way,
The thought makes my heart swell.

Swell with the passion you gave me that night,
The hope you planted in my head,
When you took me by the hand and made life bright,
Making a connection that twinkles still ahead.

It may be naive to look so far into the future,
And lay bricks so far apart,
We've come so far since our overture,
We've became so close since the start.

From Woody and Jesse,
To Brian Purrlacher and Kitty Cent,
Though some times our relationship has been messy,
I still feel that finding each other was heaven sent.

How small was the chance of us finding each other,
There has to be a reason we were given this treasure
Together we fit as a hopeful father and loving mother,
Looking for a family to last us forever.

Something real to realize what once was but a dream,
It is so close yet we can not yet hold it tight,
But I promise you its as real as the air may seem,
This ever shining light.

It may be naive to plan ahead,
For what seems so very far away,
To meet each other and even wed,
But ask yourself this:
"Would it be worth to await that very day?"

And tonight when I look on,
Into the same stars that you see,
I'll  say that I'll give until I'm all gone,
Just to show all that you mean to me.

08/2/2010

We search so long for one simple thing,
Hunting for a place to plant a ring,
All to get to watch the blossom bloom,
To stand on the podium, a groom.

Unfortunately there's a vulture offscreen,
Ready to yell cut on each and every scene,
A judge to bang his gavel in objection,
To your every move birthing rejection.

There are the just friends for you've never had the nerve,
To pull on the trigger to get what you deserve,
The one you truly liked based on who they once were,
Before they trusted you enough to change their fur.

Then there are the ones so coy,
A smile instilling joy,
But the fear keeps you away,
Blockading you from the prey.

That feeling when facing what used to be,
The way those blue eyes once made us see,
The feelings that once made us complete.
Now leaves us out to slowly deplete.

The search eventually reaches its extent,
Standing still in front of the etched cement;
Or rather the sand which never washed away,
Because that heart still remains to this day.

True Prize

What if you were only your eyes,
And their bodies were just a disguise,
A vision of nothing but lies,
Would you be able to claim your prize?

You can try with all of your might,
All day and all night,
But you'll find the faults of sight,
Depending so heavily on light.

The best of us don't use our eyes like me,
But rather we use our hearts to see,
If you would try it you would agree,
That without your eyes you can be free.

You'd learn that in the darkest place,
There flickers a light eyes can't trace,
There is much more than just a face,
But you could never know that taste.

As time keeps ticking away,
And their bodies start to decay,
Will you still see them the same way,
As you did the first day?

What if you weren't only your eyes,
And their bodies were just a disguise,
Would you still look for beautiful lies,
Or would you seek a true prize?

The World

When I first met you,
I already knew,
The future laid soon,
So tangled in swoon.

I quickly came to find,
Something I thought was left behind,
The visions of ecstasy,
Were right inside of me.

When you came into my life you comforted my denial,
When I was sad you found a way to make me smile,
When I lost all hope you were more than enough,
When I felt alone you showed me love.

I never thought I'd make it this far,
Before you taught me who you are,
You gave me the faith I needed bad,
There was no waste of time with you I had.

And with time I rejuvenated my heart,
Filling its void you gave me a start,
I can never let go of those moments we shared,
For it to end I'll never be prepared.

When you came into my life you comforted my denial,
When I was sad you found a way to make me smile,
When I lost all hope you were more than enough,
When I felt alone you showed me love.

I can't go on without you in my life,
Through the years I'll take no less then my wife,
As while to the world you are only one girl,
But to this boy you remain the world.

My Forever

Just know one thing,
That even as we get older,
I will never cut away the last string,
I hang on to this string because to me its not over.

I can't give up on hope,
Or hope will give up on me,
Sometimes its better to just cope,
So that hope can stay free.

And as you forget me I remember,
That the memory is what holds us together,
And nothing can take away that December,
Nor will you ever take away my forever.

The Complexity of Simplicity

We are all looking for answers,
Searching for a moment's reprieve,
And as seconds turn to hours,
We realize nothing's that easy.

There's nothing that is quite perfect,
The pieces don't always quite fit,
So we always try to word it,
But the words are far too simple.

The abstract concepts echo soft,
While the thought is so much stronger,
The reason seems so very feeble,
For paragraphs are too basic.

But ideas are rather robust,
And beliefs weigh much heavier,
But the strongest force is emotion,
There is nothing quite as complex.

No matter how much we invest,
The words cannot ever express,
The true meaning behind the word,
The sentences aren't that stable.

So while we are looking for answers,
We can't truly ask the right questions,
As we never can quite account for,
The complexity of simplicity.

Carvings

I sit right here on your table,
And you would never know my fear,
I no longer am fine and able,
I feel my time is drawing near.

As the blade penetrates my skull,
I seem to be losing my head,
Why use a dagger so dull,
Prolonging the misery you embed.

Pulling off my top,
And reaching deep inside,
Please won't you stop,
Before you take my pride.

Now you slowly pull out my heart,
My hope to bring life to a new field,
You tear every last bit apart,
Before you finally yield.

As you return my lid,
I finally think we've found peace,
But there you are to further rid,
Me of yet another piece.

As the knife pierces my skin,
I see you etching me a new face,
Changing who I am once again,
The old me is now gone with a trace.

You carved me until you were content,
I just wish you would finally learn,
That I never wanted you to make me different,
Because I was never supposed to be your jack-o-lantern.

Still Burning

It's time to resurrect,
The time has come to redissect,
Who are you to say it's over,
We need a new heart order.

Put an end to the chaos consuming,
In the air we breathe there's poison looming,
A taste of bad blood to be removed from thy tongue,
Let's rewind back 'til we are young.

Once again our paths emerge,
Running together our powers surge,
Why fight the feeling born in every beat,
I no longer can resist the heat;

The fire in my soul is still burning,
And all this time I've been learning,
That these flames are eternally blue,
My heart keeps telling me I need you.

Am I loud and clear,
As I sing through the year,
About the memories of us,
Still fresh in my mind yet coated in rust.

Do they still resonate brightly,
Locked inside your dreams tightly,
The way they used to hold us together,
Last time I checked it was still forever.

Yet once again our paths emerge,
Running together our powers surge,
Why fight the feeling born in every beat,
I no longer can resist the heat;

The fire in my soul is still burning,
And all this time I've been learning,
That these flames are eternally blue,
My heart keeps telling me I need you.

I seriously am curiously wondering why you left,
I checked the records to make sure you were the theft,
The results are conclusive, I have no where left to run,
I can't deny that you will always be the one;

So let's rewrite these pages,
Give our own words to the ages,
Glue the binding so we hold up strong,
The way it should have been all along.

Where once again our paths emerge,
Running together our powers surge,
Why fight the feeling born in every beat,
I no longer can resist the heat;

The fire in my soul is still burning,
And all this time I've been learning,
That these flames are eternally blue,
My heart keeps telling me I need you.

I'm changing up the way I see and now,
I've concluded that there is no how,
Just a meaning lying deep within,
That it is in the ending that we will finally begin.

I can hear your heavens calling just for me,
In this beautiful release;
No more walking, talking, living, breathing,
Without any light in our eyes gleaming.

Displaying the fire in my soul still burning,
Showing all that I've been learning,
Here and now you'll see me inside,
Forever taking my place here, by your side.

What If I Told You

From the wreckage of your weather,
From the rubble of your game,
It has finally been pulled back together,
After over a year it still remains the same.

Destroyed by the decisions you made,
The choices you thought were right,
But reassembled by the bricks you laid,
If only you would accept it tonight.

What if I told you that even in death,
It still beats in hope of making a return,
What if I told you it took every last breath,
Just for the chance to yearn;

A chance to yearn for your voice,
To hear the sound that set the rhythm to its pace,
To give life to the dream we made our choice,
The dream you left without a trace.

They still wander in my mind,
Swinging life away,
They are the reason I endure the daily grind,
The ambition that fills my day.

Jeremy's spirit is so free,
And Brayden still calls out his mommy's name,
But he only has a daddy to see,
A daddy whose dream is the same.

What if I told you that I still dream,
Where the boys still live hoping to return,
What if I told you they were as real as they seem,
Holding on for a chance to learn:

To learn that the mommy that left them behind,
Actually never left them alone,
But rather was lost looking to find,
Searching for a better home.

But what if I told you that we could fall right back,
Into the life we left behind,
In the past we could lose track,
To the good times rewind.

Maybe to you this was a waste of time,
To me this couldn't be less true,
For me the only real crime,
Is the time I don't spend with you.

Even though I don't understand love,
I love you,
To say it forever wouldn't be long enough,
As time will never limit my gift to you.

I Tried So Hard

The end of the tunnel holds no light,
The wounds bound so tight,
Yet they can not seal,
The dark never has been able to heal.

Ever since I sought you out,
I've been thriving on doubt,
The doubt that led me to flat-lined hope,
The lie that makes it possible to cope.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

When words weren't what they meant,
How can this be any different,
An apology can't make amends,
For what you call just pretend.

This is not a game that you're playing,
This was my heart that you were swaying,
Leading it on once again,
To come to think you were my friend.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

Your presence never left my view,
Just thoughts plastered with portraits of you,
It just lingers in the abyss inside my heart,
The ever growing black pulling me apart.

You just refuse to leave,
As long as I still believe,
That you aren't just a drone,
That I never want to leave you alone.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

I try so hard to tell myself your gone,
I've tried so hard for so long,
But you remain with me through all of these years,
It is the lie born in you that fights away all of my tears.

Can't Replace

My heart is tired from beating,
The damage of holding on for so long,
I watch your shadow still retreating,
So close yet so far gone.

I kept you at fingers length,
Tried so hard not to stray,
In your soul lingers strength,
But you couldn't seem to stay.

When you were scared I've comforted all of your fears,
When you cried I've wiped away all of your tears,
Through your pains I've held you so tight through these years,
After all your trials only I remain here.

I fought my battles all to believe,
To find that there is more to feel,
I just wish you didn't have to leave,
When this pain is just too real.

Sometimes it's just too hard to deal,
Trying so hard just to stay strong,
Finding out that the seconds aren't enough to heal,
Finding out I was alone all along.

When you were scared I've comforted all of your fears,
When you cried I've wiped away all of your tears,
Through your pains I've held you  so tight through these years,
After all your trials only I remain here.

This is one thing I can't seem to fix,
Something that time can not erase,
There is nothing to cure the itch,
You're one thing I can't replace.

Amazing

The sound of her voice can calm the mightiest tornado,
The way a siren would lead you wayward,
The shimmer of her hair could distract you from her halo,
The look of her eyes could steal your every word.

I'd been searching for quite a while,
Thinking that perfection wasn't part of this world,
I never knew it existed until I saw her smile,
How my life changed when I saw this girl.

I was running in circles soon after,
Trying to catch my mind,
Soon I noticed my worries were lost in laughter,
My troubles were left behind.

And with each beat of my heart,
I could feel hers beat as one,
This was the beginning of the start,
The raising of the sun.

Now I can't help but see in the face of every child,
A kid who could be ours,
At the sight of couples my mind goes wild,
I see me and her spending our hours.

Arguing over who loves the other more,
Or talking about anything we can,
The whole world would hear my heart roar,
When she made me her man.

All that's left,
Is to imagine her lips upon mine,
Locking onto my every breath,
The dream gets me every time.

I could go on forever for you,
About the way my heart is racing,
I'll leave off with the most true,
That to me, you are the definition of amazing.

Isn't One At All

It is scary to think,
The thought at hand,
A hope you would not sink,
Lower than the ground you stand.

It is so hard to believe,
When everything isn't cured,
I just wish you'd relieve,
Me of the struggles I've endured.

As I am living without you,
It is so hard not to fall,
If only you knew,
That a life without you isn't one at all.

I wake up thinking of your name,
Out of my bed I crawl,
Wondering if you think the same,
While I don't live a life at all.

All my focus is out of touch,
Searching for what is left behind,
Since that day I haven't felt much,
I just fight the daily grind.

Tallying the days to settle the score,
In hopes that they will soon not matter,
All I want is love, you, and nothing more,
I dream so vividly of the latter.

As I am living without you,
It is so hard not to fall,
If only you knew,
That a life without you isn't one at all.

I wake up thinking of your name,
Out of my bed I crawl,
Wondering if you think the same,
While I don't live a life at all.

The Unforgiving End

I still can see the feeling,
The way we used to laugh and play,
Maybe it's best to leave us reeling,
From what we thought was okay.

Carving our names in the bark,
While the tree of life came crashing down,
Oh how suddenly has it became dark,
How quickly doubt has found.

A reasonable doubt has gave us trial,
The court listens to our endless cries,
But every word was machined to defile,
All the jury could hear were lies.

Where we said we had all we needed,
We meant it only half-hearted,
We stepped too far from where we seeded,
Our roots are too far to finish what we started.

Up-rooted by our own wishes from Hell,
Hopes to be more than we could fake,
A dream to be all that we could well,
When every word was on the take.

We were bribed on our own ambition,
To find something that we could hold as real,
Something other than another flat-lined inhibition,
Something that no thief could ever steal.

The last thing we needed was bad news,
In memory of what we used to call friend,
Just another wound to cauterize and bruise,
In the unforgiving end.

All My Life

I'll be the one to tuck you in at night,
I'll make sure the bed bugs don't bite,
I won't let the monsters in the closet get out,
In my arms you will be safe, without a doubt.

I will hold you when you are scared,
In case of emergency, I'll be well prepared,
I'll take the bullet so you don't have to,
I'll give my all if it means it can be me and you.

'Cause all my life,
I looked for someone like you,
For all my life,
I wanted something true.

After all this time I see something new,
And now I don't have to think twice,
I'm so grateful that I finally found you,
The deeper meaning of my life.

When it's cold I'll snuggle you to keep you warm,
I'll give you my jacket to keep you dry in the storm,
When you're tired I'll carry you off to bed,
When you fall asleep I'll nestle your sweet head.

I will give you my shoulder when you have to cry,
I'll accompany you to mourn when people die,
I'll rub your back when you want me to,
I'll do anything if it means it can be me and you.

'Cause all my life,
I looked for someone like you,
For all my life,
I wanted something true.

After all this time I see something new,
And now I don't have to think twice,
I'm so grateful that I finally found you,
The deeper meaning of my life.

I'll always make sure you get to feed,
Forever, happily, I'll be whatever you need,
Because I'm here through the thick and thin,
For now I'll be your best friend, 'til the bitter end.

After all this time I see something new,
And now I don't have to think twice,
I'm so grateful that I finally found you,
The deeper meaning of my life.

To Keep Myself from Me

I wish I had the strength,
To tell you what I hide,
I'd go to great length,
To show you confide.

I can't fight this anymore,
But it's already too late,
I lost what I was fighting for,
And have acquired this fate.

A fate that is left unspoken,
As  I can't seem to bring it to words,
I'm laying here broken,
It all seems so absurd.

I'd give up everything,
Just to feel you one last time,
To make me feel that something,
That needs neither reason nor rhyme.

All it needed was feeling,
Something to bring my heart to a beat,
To give me wings to break through the ceiling,
And find my way to my feet.

The feeling that I was afraid to show,
To you who held the key,
Yet you never got to know,
That you had a hold of me.

But you found something better,
A different fish in the sea,
Now I'm left with nothing but letter,
To keep myself from me.

All Along

You have no clue,
How much this is felt,
I know not what to do,
With the cards I have been dealt.

 I sit here through the night,
Counting the tears upon my chest,
Trying to find what's right,
Trying to lay this part of me to rest.

I thought we might have something deep,
But you were no different than them,
It's been days since I've found sleep,
All because I lost my rings gem.

I lost a piece I refused to reveal,
The piece of me that I let you keep,
Now I'm left knowing not how to feel,
I try to open my mouth but I can't speak.

You had to pull me apart,
When you took me by the hand,
Played the role with the good girl heart,
To leave me behind in the sand.

Leaving me to face the raging tide,
That now is burying me at sea,
I just started to confide,
To let you have me.

But now at the bottom of the ocean,
I am now long gone,
I'm drowning in the water of my emotion,
Is this what you wanted, all along?

Where Would You Fall?

If you were the rain,
Where would you fall?
Would you follow the steps of pain,
Or the luckiest of all?

Would you float above the head,
Of those who are losing their mind,
Fall upon those mourning the dead,
Upon those whose hearts were left behind?

Would you pour onto those in bliss,
And bring forth a romantic scene,
For a young couple's first kiss,
Or for a man on his knee offering?

Would you rain when there's sun,
Where your true colors would show?
Would we see just one,
Or would there be a rainbow?

Would you bring back life,
In the bloom of the sleeping flower?
Would you strike lightning down on strife,
If you had the power?

If you were the rain,
Where would you fall?
Deep down are you the same,
Underneath it all?

Six Feet Underground

I walk around,
Searching in the day,
For what lies six feet underground,
Something hidden far away.

I'm chasing the sun,
To find what belongs to the night,
Seeking the only one,
That sees the hole in me tonight.

The vision is so vibrant,
Yet I don't see it in view,
Over my thought it is tyrant,
And all leads back to you.

You have my mind on lock down,
Lying six feet underground,
Hiding from the day's light,
Revealing the worst in me tonight.

Pumping water as time will tell,
Thought by thought will prove this well,
To be running dry,
Seeming empty without knowing why.

Refusing to tell me all about,
Leave me trying to figure out,
What do I truly keep,
Chained up in the arms of sleep?

Intervene

I arrive to report on the scene,
Blood and deceit is all that is seen,
I never thought I'd have to intervene,
I thought it was all a dream.

I bet you never guessed it was all sex appeal,
That you focused far too much on how to feel,
To feel that his love was oh so real,
But in the end it'll just pop your seal.

You would have never knew,
That he just wanted his due,
Thinking you found something true,
But in the end it was nothing new.

Nothing new just something fake,
Turns out he was just on the take,
They say that future is what you make,
I hope you've caught on for your sake.

But instead you just close your eyes,
And accept your unpleasant surprise,
Leaving yourself waiting with your cries,
For him to "change" before your heart dies.

Beyond Our Front Door

We are moving far too slow,
Way too hesitant to let things go,
So let's pick up the pace,
And get the hell out of this place.

Venture off into the bluest skies,
In search of the newest surprise,
Anything to make us feel more alive,
To begin to do more than just survive,

Let's follow the path of the uncertain,
Approach the window and open the curtain,
To see all that is beyond our front door,
The world that hides so much more.

So let's set sail,
And find the long lost holy grail,
Let's set off to the unknown land,
Just me and you, hand-in-hand.

But in reality it's all for one sake,
To be with you just takes the cake,
I don't care if we stay in one place,
As long as I can face it all in your embrace.

To Awake

I'm just a first class American lazy,
A lower-class sociopathic crazy,
Looking for nothing but something true,
Something to lead me back to you.

My heart is beating to your silhouette so picturesque,
Your heartbeats are acting as my GPS,
Guiding me to your horizon,
Where the sun is always risin'.

But there lies an ocean between,
A pool of purgatory binds our seam,
I won't let it keep us apart,
I'll swim it for years in hopes of a start.

I'll cross it at the speed of sound,
A plane flying homeward-bound,
This border I will break down and slaughter,
Just for you I'll walk on water.

I'll break through this wall of separation,
I'll sweat off the fear in perspiration,
And I'll be there in the morning waiting for you to wake,
Waiting for your gentle eyes to awake.

Waiting to tell you that I wouldn't let them keep us apart,
They can never keep us apart, they can never prevent this spark,
They can never stop this page of our beating hearts,
Because in their rhythm they'll always rediscover their start.

The start born the day they were completed.
Born when their sorrows were deleted.
Born in the words exchanged that found their way into view,
The utterance of the three words that resonate true.
The moment we synchronized those three simple words: I love you.

No Shame

It all adds up,
It all makes sense,
You drank from the cup,
Your capillaries became tense.

Swollen with fear,
The world seems absurd,
Surrounded by your oceans of tear,
You're at a loss of words.

There's no shame,
Left in the cloth,
You've lost your soul and name,
When you took it off.

So lock the door,
Cause you're all alone,
You don't need it anymore,
You've lost all you've known.

It's about time you let go,
Before this swallows you whole,
Before the lights no longer glow,
Save your heart and soul.

You sound so weak,
You need to become full,
Look not in the past bleak,
Remember in the end, we all feel the pull.

Like a Dog

You come knocking on the door,
But I won't let you in,
I gave you much but refuse you more,
You gave me less to expect me to rebegin.

You've got nerve,
I'll give you that,
To come asking for what you don't deserve,
Hoping I'll let you back.

Oh doctor, you must have gotten sick,
Somehow scratching down my gate,
Like a dog wanting past my wall of brick,
How can you forecast me to ameliorate?

Oh I'm sure,
All that you saw,
Were waterfalls of cure,
Elixir to your every flaw.

I can't fix your pain,
I can't help that you're addicted,
To let you back would put my name to shame,
So why should I fix it?

You put me in this circumstance,
I might as well be in the brig,
So take this second chance,
And make it big.

You have to take it,
To make it,
But remember not to forget it,
Because it is the last you'll ever get.

Race the Sunset

You are everything,
Nothing less,
This serenity you bring,
I must digress.

Your voice is so tranquil,
Carrying a melodic cadence,
For your hair I'm so thankful,
Engorged with radiance.

Your eyes sing to me,
In perfect harmony,
Your heart feels so free,
Where I always want to be.

Your lips are so enticing,
I long for their taste,
Your arms are ever so inviting,
I want to dive into your embrace.

It is there that we'll chase the sun,
And melt away together,
Racing the sunset we will have won,
Where we will finally sleep forever.

Somebody Told Me

Somebody told me once before,
That life catches us all someday,
If you aren't ready for what's in store,
It will waste you away.

That I better watch my back when I'm sick,
And when I forget how to feel,
'Cause I may be moving quick,
But it's always on my heels.

I know there's a calm before the storm,
But darkness always merges into light;
The cold eventually becomes warm,
And something has to be wrong before you can make it right.

There's just one thing you should know,
That I no longer have a dream,
In my sleep there is nothing to show,
I just hope you get what I mean.

Now all I have is a reason,
A reason to believe it's all over,
My life is in the changing of it's season,
I'm finally ready to get older.

Worth the Entanglement

I crossed through valleys of hate,
I climbed past the mountains of fear,
I forded the seas of fate,
Just to make myself more near.

I traversed across deserts of doubt,
And flew through flames of deceit,
Just to end hope's drought,
To put us back on our own two feet.

All just to walk across this ground,
And break the silence all around,
As we fall through oceans of sound,
Together, there's nothing left to fall down.

I swam through pools of purgatory,
Through storms of strife,
To tell the world a story,
The fairy tale I call life.

We slept through the thunder of regret,
Through the hurricane of entropy,
Woke up in a maze of self-respect,
In the arms of empathy.

All just to walk across this ground,
And break the silence all around,
As we fall through oceans of sound,
Together, there's nothing left to fall down.

I walked the road of redemption,
Just to make it through,
Past the cave of temptation,
Just to reach you.

I crawled through the slums of malice,
Through the threats of being forsaken,
I bared the pain of being calloused,
I lived through being mistaken.

All just to walk across this ground,
And break the silence all around,
As we fall through oceans of sound,
Together, there's nothing left to fall down.

I slide through faith covered in rust,
To find the way past the dark clouds above,
I sailed through tears to find this trust,
Because it was all worth the entanglement in the webs of love.

Alcoholics

One just for the feeling,
Another for the spite,
One to leave us reeling,
And a final to tonight.

A toast to the Gods,
Who left us in the dust,
Let's drink to the clods,
Who care not if we rust.

Cheers to the hierarchy,
Who left us here forsaken,
We are unsung in this monarchy,
We are the monsters, the mistaken.

They call us the alcoholics,
Though we were born in their revelation,
To them we're just post-traumatic psychotics,
But it's our only way to fight temptation.

To make this world what it should be,
Instead of this place they find well,
They don't understand that where they curse me,
It doesn't matter, I'm already in Hell.

Those Stars in Your Eyes

With every breath I take,
With every second we make,
This love becomes even more strong,
My heart is running a marathon.

Faster and faster it goes,
Quicker and quicker faith in you grows,
And I never knew it was possible to feel,
Everything I seem to know feels so surreal.

For the way the stars twinkle in your eyes,
Lighting the way through our skies,
The path to our heaven towards we steer,
You make it so easy to persevere.

So easy to find our place,
Find our shelter within our embrace,
Where we feel safe and secure,
Where all our fears,our insecurities fall like tears.

There is nowhere I'd rather be,
Than where it is just you and me,
Sharing all and loving as a team,
Holding hands and living the dream.

For the way the stars twinkle in your eyes,
Lighting the way through our skies,
The path to our heaven towards we steer,
You make it so easy to persevere.

So easy to persevere,
When I know your heart is here,
When I can look at those stars in your eyes,
And can't help but to choke on these butterflies.

I Hope You Enjoy It

I was a sailor,
On a dying ship,
You were my failure,
I couldn't help it.

I was sinking,
To the bottom of the sea,
Left me thinking,
What is there left of me.

On this capsizing ship,
I lost faith in your ruse,
Apparently I'm the culprit,
The only person to accuse.

But your shells threw us away,
Now they bury you in lies,
There is no other way,
You know damn well I tried.

I thought it was so farfetched,
That your canons left a mark,
Your face was etched,
Into my ship, into my heart.

I didn't want to save you,
But I still gave it my all,
You know it's true,
That your decision was our fall.

On this capsizing ship,
I lost faith in your ruse,
Apparently I'm the culprit,
The only person to accuse.

But your shells threw us away,
Now they bury you in lies,
There is no other way,
You know damn well I tried.

Now you have a stone in your chest,
I hope you love your life crying,
Because whenever I said I wished you the best,
I was lying.

She is the Medicine

The damage had been done,
He was let loose into a path of self-destruction,
He was his own disease eating at his existence,
Tied up in noose as his path of resistance.

Every girl would get up and leave,
Every hope left him without a will to believe,
No faith to hold onto when he was struck,
Nothing to cope in a world barren in luck.

No longer torn,
Now freed from his own chains,
He is reborn,
Hatched from seed is a sprout of change;

She is the medic-une,
To reverse whats been done,
Using his lips to reconcile,
This curse by catching her smile.

Catching it on his own,
In her words he's finding home,
Cause she's his heart, his soul,
Where he starts, and where he shall go.

She's the destination,
On the voyage of his recreation;
He looks in her eyes only to find,
That he sees a light divine.

A light to guide him through,
His path to something new;
The true God is within his life,
The being that is perfect, to become his wife.