Sunrise

It is always the break of dawn,
Whenever I gaze into your eyes,
A new found horizon in which my heart does belong,
A vision of hope, within your embrace it lies.

A faith I used to never know,
Born in the hands of chance,
A portrait painted white as snow,
Like the dress you wore for our first dance.

So here's to a better year,
No doubt, it's a promise because you're here,
So here's to a better life,
A better dream, the best wife.

The time has gone so fast,
But the clock is a liar,
Unlike the past, eternity will last,
No amount of time or water can put out this fire.

Through good and bad you're stuck,
And if I said I love you a hundred times before,
Well you're in luck,
You can expect a million more.

So here's to a better year,
No doubt, it's a promise because you're here,
So here's to a better life,
A better dream, the best wife.

Before we know it,
We will be watching the sunrise,
But never forget,
You'll be looking to the sky while I'm looking in your eyes.

My Sanctuary

I found a sanctuary,
A place full of charms,
A feeling safe and merry,
Inside your arms.

The rush I get,
When we are close,
Call the doctor before I forget,
It's not natural to have this pulse.

A smile sweeps across my face,
And a dream is born of you and me,
Every time I think of your embrace,
And every time you call me b.

You've only once crossed my mind,
Since I took my first breath,
I've come to find,
That since that moment you've never left.

I never want to say goodbye,
I'd rather lose my pride,
On your wings I've learned to fly,
I want to spend my life by your side.

Where a smile sweeps across my face,
And a dream is born of you and me,
Every time I'm in your embrace,
And every time you call me b.

You are my sanctuary,
I've fallen for your charms,
The you make me safe and merry,
Can I forever live inside your arms.

The Cards

The cards lay before you,
The game is about to begin,
There is a fight to attend to,
You have to stand before you can win.

Sharpen up your teeth,
And bite the hand that feeds,
Push the enemy down beneath,
For the future sow seeds.

Because you are your own judge,
The jury of your past defeats,
To clear your name of its smudge,
You must overcome that past repeats.

Bury the skeletons locked away,
And face the ghosts that haunt you,
Evolve to predator from being prey,
Your reign is overdue.

To own your own life,
You must load your gun and fight,
To battle through misery and strife,
All to protect what you feel is right.

Because there is no one to defend your dreams,
So you must take yourself by the hand from the start,
Nothing really matters it seems,
If you can't uphold your heart.

Nothing Can Change That

We paint a portrait of many a word,
Trying to express what we feel,
I scream it though it can't be heard,
Because a strong enough word isn't real.

I'm fighting looking only to find,
An answer to the question that I ask,
To know what to call what's on my mind,
The word that hides behind the mask.

So I keep saying I love you,
And nothing can change that today,
The feeling resonates true,
And no one can take that away.

They say I'm running in place,
That my effort is not enough,
Searching for a card without a face,
But I'm determined to call their bluff.

Because I know more,
Than they can even pretend to,
For I have a cause that's worth fighting for,
And I believe in you.

So I keep saying I love you,
And nothing can change that today,
The feeling resonates true,
And no one can take that away.

The feeling they say is blank,
I will put a word to be one and the same,
To my sixth sense I give thanks,
I bestow this feeling your name.

And in your clouds,
Is my heaven,
I say it out proud,
I feel Megan.

Another World

I can't walk away,
No, no, at least not today;
Living for a chance at life,
Holding on for my future wife.

I can't turn my back,
If I want the odds to stack,
No one can make me feel this way,
So I will wait another countless day.

Cause I dream big for her,
And I have never been so sure,
That she must be from another world,
Cause I could never love another girl.

I wish to live more near,
So I could hold her dear,
Flying high hopefully soon,
Her eyes take me to the moon.

My religion is in her smile,
If only she would stay a while,
I don't want just a pretty face,
I want her voice as my saving grace.

Cause I dream big for her,
And I have never been so sure,
That she must be from another world,
Cause I could never love another girl.

The clothes that she wears,
The way sun shimmers off her hair,
I promise to always care,
Heaven, she takes me there.

The door, knock knock,
The clock, tic toc,
The tears, drip drop,
I have brakes but cannot stop;
At least not today,
How do you make me feel this way?

True Romance

If I had a choice,
I'd be there to hold,
I'd follow your voice,
Until my blood runs cold.

I'd open every door,
Comfort you when you cry,
Kiss better every sore,
Until my heart runs dry.

Give me the chance,
And I will be all I can,
May I ask you for a dance,
I'll be your gentleman.

If you want something true,
Just call my name,
Grace me with your virtue,
And we can put an end to pain.

I'd make you warm,
When the air is cold,
I'd protect you from harm,
And together we'd grow old.

I would tuck you in at night,
I'd write you songs,
About how your smile is so bright,
And I'd sing them all night long.

Give me the chance,
And I will be all I can,
May I ask you for a dance,
I'll be your gentleman.

If you want something true,
Just call my name,
Grace me with your virtue,
And we can put an end to pain.

When the world turns its back on you,
I'll hug you tight,
I'll say: "Baby, don't be so blue,
I promise everything will be alright."

If I had a choice,
Your hand I would hold,
I'd follow your voice,
Until my blood runs cold.

Just give me a glance,
I won't be a waste of a dance,
Just give me a chance,
And I will show you true romance.

Decietful Face

Tie up my dreams,
Go ahead, hang them from your tree,
The hope is never as real as it seems,
Happiness isn't ever for free.

Rip apart the seams,
Go ahead, blind my eyes before they see;
The stitches that held together my dreams,
Faith stripped away, making prey of me.

I will never move forward,
No oasis is within my reach,
There is no path to move toward,
Just a sun painted black and bleach.

With every step I take,
I stay in the same place,
With every hope I make,
I paint another deceitful face.

I wait for you in fear,
When even the dedicated scatter,
No one sees that I'm here,
It doesn't even matter.

I'm catching every tear,
Even when I face thrash and batter,
I'll make it right if you let me dear,
But to you it doesn't even matter.

I will never move forward,
No oasis is within my reach,
There is no path to move toward,
Just a sun painted black and bleach.

With every step I take,
I stay in the same place,
With every hope I make,
I paint another deceitful face.

Don't count me out just yet,
I'll give you my hand and you'll see,
Make memories you will never want to forget,
Please don't close your door on me.

Don't cut me down just yet,
Before I let you see,
Please don't forget,
Don't close your blinds on me.
On me......

Inside Your Arms

The night is spinning faster,
Spinning out of my control,
Exploding into disaster,
Pieces breaking from the whole.

A walk on a bed of broken glass,
But the cuts are never too deep,
They told me my hope would never last,
That my dreams are locked tight in the arms of sleep.

And those dreams never come true,
Outside of fairy tale,
Who I will grow up into,
Will only know how to fail.

Fail at holding onto all I know,
Standing up for what I truly believe,
I give my all with nothing to show,
But the shards of the organ upon my sleeve.

I'd give it all away,
The knowledge I possess,
The writing that gets me through the day,
If I would never live in this mess.

Give up everything that I have for one day,
Where I know what it feels like to be whole,
To feel like someone feels the same way,
All I want is to live my life full.

But I've been running on empty far too long,
Searching for the moment where happiness is within my reach,
Swimming to shore but the currents too strong,
Drowning in the undertow longing for the beach.

The beach where I could rest my head,
Inside the arms of all I need, truly, madly, deep,
The feeling of love where loneliness is dead,
Inside your arms, the unlocked arms of sleep.

World of Wonder

I'm finding my own way,
Ashes in my hair,
The path led me astray,
Destination unknown, don't know where.

I'm moving mountains in search for nothing,
Nothing but the hope I once held,
That special something,
That with her I felt.

But I've come to find,
That feeling you radiate,
Is more pungent then the one I left behind,
In this new world you create.

But in this world of wonder,
To impress is harder,
I can swim towards thunder,
But you expect me to walk on water.

Luckily it's not really that difficult,
To achieve the impossible,
By your side I could catch a lightning bolt,
You make me feel unstoppable.

And these ashes that litter the past,
In your rays they melt away,
The pain will never last,
In our world of wonder we will stay.

Even If I'm Not Okay

It's three in the morning,
And your response hit without warning,
Maybe you're right,
But it doesn't feel so tonight.

I wander through the cold,
In a stranglehold,
Looking for the answer to my feeling,
Why couldn't it stay concealing?

You still haunt my dreams,
Tearing them apart at the seams,
How can I sleep when I'm afraid,
In the dark the light did fade.

I've come to find that I was right,
That feeling wasn't born in trite,
And rejection isn't good in health,
You make it hard to be honest with even myself.

But I'll say I'm okay,
Even if I'm not okay,
Because our friendship is all I have left to lose,
I hate when between you and my heart I must choose.

This charade will never last,
Within my walls I'm repeating past,
If I understand do not ask,
Just pick the poison and pour me a glass.

I'll do anything to prove it true,
To make you believe that all I want is you,
That beyond my skin and bone,
I don't want to live with my heavy burden all alone.

When I Woke Up

I don't know what to say,
Or if it's worth revealing,
I'm afraid of what may,
So I've left it in my heart concealing.

Affection pours from your heart,
A rain of sunshine and confusion,
I had trouble from the start,
Figuring out if you're just another illusion.

Your smile ever gleaming in my eyes,
Penetrates my fear,
It dries the tears born in my cries,
And leaves me holding you dear.

Holding you closer than you even know,
I refuse to let go of the rope you threw out to me,
How much longer until my feeling will show,
And find out that in my dreams, you're all I see.

I could stare into your eyes all night,
And lose track of the time finding the right words to say,
But there are no words that bring justice to this reborn light,
That replaced the darkness that dissipated my hope away.

I could live under a bridge through the most brutal cold,
With nothing else to call my own,
And still feel like I have everything in my hold,
Because you're the reason why I'm home.

Home is not a place,
But a comforting feeling we find,
I found it when I woke up to your face,
That moment will never leave my mind.

I'm trying my best to show you,
All that you mean to me,
But I've come to learn that words just won't do,
There are no words strong enough to express the way you set me free.

Eclipsing in Conversation

You're signals are confusing,
An answer is no where to be seen,
These actions you're choosing,
I don't know what they mean.

The way you stretched out to me,
Your moves brought paralysis,
I didn't know how I was supposed to be,
What should I make of this?

The re-encounter is on the way,
What will be born of this relation,
The color is blurred in gray,
But we are eclipsing in conversation.

The days are counting down,
Until we meet once more,
I admit, around you it's hard to frown,
But what is left in store?

Hanging On

You just want to be done,
All that you keep inside you want to be numb,
I wish I was a good enough friend,
That I could bring your pain to an end.

You can't come to grips that she's gone,
Sometimes tragedy keeps us holding on;
Hanging onto what means the most to our hearts,
Is all we know to do when our world falls apart.

The pain caged inside is released in different ways,
But we can't be honest about it these days;
Not even with ourselves,
We just hope that we can find help.

Deep down our regrets eat away,
And we don't notice it causing decay,
When we notice it is far too late,
What we once had is lost to pseudofate.

I can't help if you don't let me,
I need your trust to try and flee,
The Toni that is waiting inside,
Hand in hand with the love that died.

Theatrical Lines

My dreams keep me awake at night,
'Cause they're stained with portraits of your face,
I know you're with him, this just isn't right,
Everything seems so meaningless and out of place.

The "beautiful" world has forsaken me I guess,
I'm blanketed only by my own tears,
I know but one way out of this mess,
But suicide is something I'd rather not mention here.

Why did you leave me?
I tried so hard to be all I could,
I admired your true beauty,
But I'm left misunderstood.

I'd wait outside your door,
With apologies tied up in a bouquet,
I'd give you the knife in my bottom drawer,
Even if I was not okay.

'Cause when you held my hand,
I didn't have another care,
But now you hold another man's,
And I don't know how long I can fare.

You promised you'd wait,
But broke it after only a few day,
The broken promise brought us to this state,
How could you leave me this way?

Do I have to use theatrical lines,
Just to get a glance?
Who was there for you in the hard times,
You now leave in a fetal stance.

Heart Beating Cold

Now who are you?
You're acting like a stranger,
Where's the girl I knew,
You were my dream, my savior.

The future had hope,
All that could of been,
It would of been easy to cope,
If it was never for him.

But look at me now,
You left me with nothing to hold,
Not a seed left to sow,
And a heart beating cold.

It's barely beating at all,
Built me up, but now strength is no where to be found,
Pushed me off now watching me fall,
Made it so waking up is more like waking down.

The beautiful rose was in bloom,
But only thorns remain,
He has the petals I presume,
While my blood pools to stain.

But look at me now,
You left me with nothing to hold,
Not a seed left to sow,
And a heart beating cold.

I lay alone,
Tried counting sheep,
But I can't find home,
And can't find sleep.

Where did you go off to?
The answer needs not be said,
You ignore my pleas for you,
Your between the sheets in his bed.

But look at me now,
You left me with nothing to hold,
Not a seed left to sow,
And a heart beating cold.

This isn't you, what is wrong?
I plead to you but you don't listen,
My soul is empty since you've gone,
My body has become my prison.

So I force my way through the day,
Just for hope of something new,
Even if it is not okay,
I do it all for you.

Limited Print

This book is limited in print,
In fact there's only one,
I want to keep you innocent,
It isn't easily done.

I've loved it from the start,
But you weren't made to please me,
If I had any other heart,
Letting you go would be easy.

But I don't have that fortune,
Instead I fear that day,
Of my worry you hold more than a portion,
All of it hopes from there he stay away.

Unfortunately I can't meddle in this affair,
I have to stay behind,
Left to worry of losing you there,
The last of my dreams rests on this line.

Back in the Day

Open the box,
A time capsule from youth,
Various toys, objects, and rocks,
A bittersweet taste of truth.

Looking at life back in the day,
When we got over things with ease,
Our sense of wonder couldn't be taken away,
We were so easy to please.

Death was only temporary,
And sorrow so simply was forgotten,
A cheap toy could be exemplary,
Now that sense is spoiled rotten.

Our emotions were so more mellow,
And we had not a care of affection,
Back when all we had to fear was snow colored yellow,
The best days of my life in my recollection.

Now emotions are impossible to take,
And affection is what I need the most,
I have to now fear every decision I make,
These worst days of my life are leaving me comatose.

Our Curse

You told me at the start,
That the future is haze,
And you left me with a broken heart,
The hope just never stays.

No one cares for the hopeless,
Just like no one pities the convict,
They just focus on the precious,
While we drown in the spit.

The promises of yesterday,
The fruits of all the love I used,
Are broken for him today,
For your crime I'm accused.

Yet I crawl back,
'Cause I need you,
Of backbone I lack,
I swear it's nothing new.

I wish I could steal your heart,
But you stole mine first,
Tore it apart,
It is now our curse.

When Only Pain is Sound

I'm getting tired,
Hating all I've known,
The aesthetics I've admired,
Is blocked by walls of stone.

Do I knock it down,
Or do I cave in?
When only pain is sound,
Do you push it all-in?

After all I've been through,
It's time to change end to begin,
I need something new,
I'm picking up the pieces and starting again.

I push onwards to fight,
Not to live but to strive,
It is wrong yet it feels right,
Will I make it out alive?

I'll Change

I hope your listening,
To everything I'm saying,
The way your image is glistening,
The love I own I now am paying.

I miss it all,
The way you'd nudge my arm,
The late night phone call,
Used to make me feel away from harm.

But I'll change my heart,
My name and reverse the end,
If it means I get a new start,
And can still be your best friend.

Bury Me, I'm Useless

"Move on, you lost,"
Yet I can't let go at any cost,(I'm not cheap)
She almost is in love with him,
The light at the end of the tunnel is past dim. (for light I weep)

It's burnt out,
Like a field during drought, (there is no rain)
He took my wife, my name,
And now me and her feel the same. (it's driving me insane)

Both of us feel this way,
Happiness never will see the light of day, (locked up tight)
My hourglass's sand is running dry,
And my heart is not a fan of goodbye.(to stay feels more right)

I guess I had my chance,
At happy romance, (I guess I'm only a joke)
But like always I came up short,
My hope's and dream's mother chose to abort. (they're up in smoke)

I try to catch my breath,
But there's no air left, (my lungs are failing)
I've become so weak,
I can not speak. (communication isn't smooth sailing)

I can't find will,
In anything outside of pill, (difference in the dose)
The morning is drawing near,
The end is almost here. (I have hours at most)

How can I relax at home,
When home is gone and I'm all alone,(in an empty room)
The silence consumes my soul,
The fight in me is stole. (I feel the doom)

It's so cold that I'm shaking,
By these thoughts I am making, (I'm out of touch)
Your head on his chest,
Himself between your breast. (it hurts so much)

The American dream,
Tearing apart at the seam, (it once was vivid)
And I don't know what to do,
It is me, it isn't you. (I am just livid)

As the blood floods up to the hip,
I taste misery while you taste his lip, (how does it taste?)
Brandon's got a new blade,
To it he's a slave. (his blood is a waste)

Carving him to bone,
Empty useless carcass all alone, (always wasn't worth the time)
What did I do to deserve,
To be kicked to the curb? (falling in love is a crime)

I don't wanna be in love anymore,
Where is the girl I still adore? (to me she was perfect)
The innocent girl is headed towards whore,
While I'm displacing tears on my lonely bedroom floor. (is the pain worth it?)

You had my heart,
And you ripped it apart,(smashed it into pieces)
Over and over you broke me,
Now end it, please choke me. (asphyxiation releases)

The memories are using me,
While the love is abusing me, (in a stranglehold)
The feeling you use to show me will never leave my mind,
The memory of our future, pushes me into the casket you leave behind. (heart left cold)

Lost at Sea

You are slowly disappearing,
I disregard the lies I'm hearing,
All that you plead is wrong,
All that you feel is gone.

Happiness ran away,
On that dreadful day,
You search for faith in his desire,
Looking for warmth but can't find fire.

As you swim to the thunder,
The waves sweep you under,
Gasping for breath,
But there's no air left.

The wind drags you further,
Lost the will as loneliness grows stronger,
Lost the will to return to shore,
And find safety like before.

The tide is getting steeper,
And your actions plunge you deeper,
Lost in the sea of all that you knew,
Ocean floor concealing what's left of you.

For a home you long,
Led wayward by siren's song,
The peace and safety you expect,
Has become an inherent loss of self-respect.

All that you plead is wrong,
All that you feel is gone,
I won't turn my back on the blue,
I'll save what's left of you.

I won't lose you to Davy Jones,
There's more to you than skin and bones,
I won't let you be lost at sea,
You're all that's left of me.

But only failure did I bring,
Now all that's left of me is nothing.
Failure, all that I know.

My Own Way

Alienate those not the same,
Worship a higher power,
Leave them without a name,
At their pride devour.

The great uniter,
Dividing the camaraderie of man,
The conversion fighter,
Trying to undiversify the life plan.

Stand in line for your savior,
Praying just to feel safe-tay,
A greater power of a bland flavor,
I'll go my own way.

I won't kneel and bow my head,
Faith in a dictator king,
I'll live for love instead,
I can save myself from Hell's sting.

Life can fall apart,
A true God wouldn't allow pain,
Faith is for the faint of heart,
And manipulators of brain.

So believe than,
If it makes you feel safe-tay,
But all I can plan,
Is to go my own way.

I'm Just Learning

I say it so clear,
But I see it in your eyes;
My voice you can't hear,
For fear of lies.

I'm opening up to you,
But the efforts not so good,
I brought my heart to view,
But you misunderstood.

I scream for attention,
I need your glance,
Not gonna mention,
That I have not a chance.

Over and over I cannot believe,
That I'll ever get a shot,
I stand in line but watch you leave,
My heart is yours, a sacrifice never bought.

You leave my dreams burning,
I'm just learning...

My stomach is churning,
But pain is just learning...

The tables aren't turning,
Am I just learning..?

For your lips I am yearning,
I hope you're learning...

That I am the only one,
Who feels this way;
You aren't a trophy to be won,
You are the pacemaker making me stay.

What's Worth Fighting For

I know when to start a war,
In the arms of what I once knew,
I know what's worth fighting for,
And that is a chance with you.

I'll leave behind my other ambitions,
To polish my laid to rest gun,
And make the transitions,
Necessary to fight for one.

I'll fight to the end,
Facing death if I must,
I might break, I might bend,
But in your heart I trust.

I'll hope and pray for victory,
Even though God I do not believe,
I'd do anything to break us free,
Even if my lack of faith I must relieve.

The battle field is not a pretty sight,
But there is always a price for desire,
For what we really believe we must fight,
Our hearts beat to our inner fire.

To compete we reach for the sky,
I"m telling you I won't give in;
Of my will to trudge on don't ask why,
I will always fight to live in your arms again.

Longing for the Horizon

Spinning out of control,
I've been far from a roll,
I want it so bad,
To love you as all I had.

I want you to be mine,
Always knew you'd leave, fine;
Still I dream of your touch,
But to you my love isn't much.

Sunshine is faded,
But he is paraded,
The taste you cannot bare,
So only touch can fair.

The morning sun is gone,
All right is wrong,
Dark has consumed the light,
My sanctuary now wrapped in night.

I long for this to change,
A life to rearrange,
Empty is my fuel gauge,
Trapt in a cage.

A cage of your grasp,
Barely holding your clasp,
Waiting to find your place,
While I wait to caress your face.

Blinded by the dark,
Thirsting for a spark,
I long for your horizon,
Ever since my sun stopped rising.

Drip Drop

If this is life,
I'm better off dead,
Blood baptized knife,
By those words said.

I've done all in my power,
To reach your hand,
A sweet taste gone sour,
Isn't life grand?

Promises never meant much,
Rules broken leave me sore,
Traditions practiced are such,
Leaving my heart on the floor.

Broken pieces litter my eyes,
Forgotten words for him to pierce,
A morbid chaotic lullaby,
Haunts my thoughts so fierce.

I knew from the start,
that you lived for ignorance,
You stole my heart,
But he stole your innocence.

Tick tock, tick tock,
Will you come to see?
Drip drop, drip drop,
Stop before blood buries me.

Tick tock, tick tock,
Time is running true,
Drip drop, drip drop,
All this pain for you.

Worth Defending

They will hold you back,
If you give them the chance,
You need to take risks,
To circumvent circumstance.

They speak what they call wisdom,
Because they spend their lives in fear,
Playing safe got them this far,
But they are too deaf to see, too blind to hear.

Get ready to cock your gun,
And sharpen up your knife,
They want to tell you that you can't,
Do what you want with your life.

So bare your teeth,
And tell them to stop pretending,
They think with their head not their heart,
While we know our dreams are worth defending.

We won't let them win,
We can surpass with pride,
While we face the world head-on,
They just try to hide.

When they get in your head,
You lose faith in the start,
They will stop you if you let em',
So never be the faint of heart.

Get ready to cock your gun,
And sharpen up your knife,
They want to tell you that you can't,
Do what you want with your life.

So bare your teeth,
And tell them to stop pretending,
They think with their head not their heart,
While we know our dreams are worth defending,
They're never ending, never ending.

But be not too tense,
Or you will fall, so be not tense,
Cause' no one but yourself will come to your defense.

See This Through

I miss the way you nudged me,
When laying with me at night.
I miss the way you'd kiss me,
It always convinced me I was alright.

But now that has past,
And I'm lost without you babe,
My sanity will never last,
If I wait any longer I'll not be safe.

I sleep alone every night,
And it's been killing me,
All my hopes are out of sight,
They are so hard to see.

I know I'm on the way out,
It plagues me so,
Without knowing all I think about,
You are letting me go.

Tell me what it takes to get to you,
Don't leave me debating,
I'll give my all to see this through,
If you let me, I'll be there waiting.

Roses in hand,
Waiting for your return,
But not forever can I stand,
In a world without the girl I yearn.

Please tell me everything will be alright.
I need to hear that so bad.
Toni's mom died, which is plaguing my mind without peace in sight.
She won't talk to me.
Hannahs avoiding me. Todays our one year. Fuck me.
I have nothing to do to distract me.
Tonis dating mason.

Nothing is right in my life.
No one is here to comfort me.
Just let me waste myself deeper in depression

I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you.

But you don't care.
You don't.
You've been in contact with him.
That hurt me most.

I'm not that important to you.
You don't like me anymore.
You won't let me find peace with your mom.
I cared more about her than youll ever know.
I can't just tell you that she's my mom too.
But I feel like that.
You really make me want to kill myself.
But I still miss you,
I still love you.
But all you do is keep me from being happy.
Only my death will make me happy.

Drink My Problems

I feel so lost,
In a world without you,
We seem to be star-crossed,
But what can I do.

You seem to be so close,
To him as we drift apart,
I feel like no one knows,
How I wish for any other heart.

This one will never last,
In a world that rejects mine,
It has been etched in the past,
That my heart is left behind.

Time to just drink my problems,
One for heartbroken and another for missing a friend,
I"ll never be able to solve them,
This pain will never end.

Like always you'll want him,
This dog never got his day,
Hopes light is wearing dim,
As my heart is fading away.

Am I the Guy You're Looking For?

I see it in your eyes,
And even more in your smile,
My heart never lies,
Even when separated by countless mile.

I'm so in love with you,
You can never take that away.
Does he see the same thing I do,
When he kisses you today?

While I sit at home staring into space,
Dreaming of you while he plays with your hair,
Wishing I could caress your face,
And constantly tell you how much I care.

How can I win your heart?
I don't have a clue;
You're a flawless work of art,
While I'm just a boy who is blue.

These dreams of us together,
In your dress white as snow,
Has me asking if you two will be forever,
I fear I'll never know.

I look around only to find,
All these girls don't feel right,
But when I think of you I see a gold mine,
Who will make me feel less alone at night.

I just want to lay next to you,
For the rest of my days,
Wake up and look into your pools of blue,
It'd make my living Hell feel like everything's okay.

But for now I'm cursed here,
As life has granted me an unholy fate,
Alone without you my dear,
Has left me at Hell's gate.

The loneliness has control of me,
Keeping me from opening the door,
I've been living my life waiting to see,
Hoping I'm the guy you're looking for.

Never Will I Make Her Proud

My heart gave out,
In a sea of rejection,
Looking for its way about,
Trying to correct my imperfection.

I tried so hard to face it together,
But you became furious,
My loneliness seems to last forever,
I can never feel delirious.

I'll never recover from this,
I'll never be the same again,
Can't ever return to a state of bliss,
Never will I believe in hope within.

I've learned you won't let me in,
My fate is all but set,
The sunshine will never rise again,
As it is drowning in regret.

All my tears are displaced,
Slowly taking the place of me on the floor,
My heart is now disgraced,
Upon this casket of closed doors.

I know I'm just an empty travesty,
I'll never make you or your parents proud,
I'm a walking tragedy,
To live I should not be allowed.

I'm the dullest tool,
Blind so I'll never see,
I was but a fool,
She'll never smile down at me.

I will always be a failure to her,
Both of them will hate me as they should,
They will never have to endure,
I should be gone for their own good.

Rest in Peace

I never knew you,
And you likely never knew that I exist,
There is something I have to do,
And to do this my heart insists.

Please know that your passing has impacted me,
More than a stranger could ever know,
I hope that you approve of what you see,
Because to make you proud, I want it so.

You'll always be on my mind,
As a great mother,
The world that you left behind,
Will remember you like no other.

The girl you raised,
Brought me to you,
For all your efforts you shall be praised,
And I'll always keep that true.

Please rest in peace,
And let us meet in the after life,
I hope you accept me and release,
If I get to have your daughter as my wife.

But no matter what,
I will remember you forever,
Your loss is such a deep cut,
But it will eventually draw us together.

In loving memory of Tracy Oda Wilson

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
-David Harkins

The Heart is Not a Well

They tell me to move one inch at a time,
And just move on forward,
I am a lemon in a world for a lime,
Where is the light to head toward?

My heart's not a well,
They think it won't run dry,
Into it I have fell,
Emptying the water I cry.

Just keep drinking the water,
And they say it'll be alright,
When all I have left is my stepfather,
How can I sleep safely at night?

Without you I have no family,
To call out my name,
My hope crumbles so brittlely,
After tonight I'll never be the same.

This well is running out,
Eventually I'll no longer be able to cry,
What is left to be happy about,
When my heart's run dry?

How Can I?

You don't like me anymore,
Is all I remember you telling me,
No more waiting for,
You to break me free.

I'd do anything for you,
You know that I would,
All light has faded before the true,
The love never faded, though it should.

How can I say that I'm me,
While everything is breaking,
It's become so easy to see,
That I'm not okay, I'm shaking.

While I'm out here alone,
Waiting for someone to be my savior,
Someone to stabilize my backbone,
But that is too big of a favor.

A parasitic cyst,
Upon her I feed,
Her kiss so desperately missed,
Curse to Hell my greed.

How can I say that I'm me,
While everything is breaking,
It's become so easy to see,
That I'm not okay, I'm shaking.

I just can't breath enough,
When I am not the one,
I need her love,
Like a plant needs the sun.

Ghost of You

I look at you now,
And I hold my breath,
I've given you all,
You've given me less.

I gave you my heart,
And all my respect,
You throw me away,
What did I expect?

Just a ghost of you,
Left to hold,
What can I do,
As my arms grow cold.

If time is out,
Than what can I do?
Now I only cry and pout,
Before the ghost of you.

I've been trying way too long,
To try and find my place,
When you ignore me when I try to snuggle,
Leaves such a bitter taste.

I remember when you'd happily share the affection,
The way you made me feel so lucky,
That's all gone now,
And every night my eyes go yucky.

Just a ghost of you,
Left to hold,
What can I do,
As my arms grow cold.

If time is out,
Than what can I do?
Now I only cry and pout,
Before the ghost of you.

The tears need to be washed,
But you never want to be the same,
My dreams haunt my thought,
Waiting for you to call my name.

The ghost of you,
Will be the death of me,
The ghost of you,
Is making the ghost of me.

Stuck

I am stuck as the shoulder,
When she knows I want much more,
Upon my heart sits a one ton boulder,
What the hell am I waiting for?

I can hold up a shield,
But eventually I must explain,
How I want her needs revealed,
Before I am consumed by its pain.

The blood runs through us both,
But hear my cries if she may,
Please take my oath,
That we would not be another cliche.

I am stuck as the shoulder,
When she knows I want much more,
Upon my heart sits a one ton boulder,
What the hell am I waiting for?

Hostage

That gun isn't so intimidating,
Is this normal in the world I live in?
This false courage I am creating,
Can never hide the fear within.

Staring down your barrel,
Will not change my mind,
I'll endure your every peril,
This time I won't leave it behind.

Keep me hostage as long as you must,
We all need to fight the fight,
It takes time to create the trust,
That will make everything alright.

I need to crack the lock,
That holds the chains around me,
You don't have many tricks in stock,
But I have no where to flee.

I'll bite the bullet,
If that is what it will take,
The strength to pull it through,
Will be enough to break you.

Keep me hostage as long as you must,
We all need to fight the fight,
It takes time to create the trust,
That will make everything alright.

You will no longer hold back,
The once weak boy you knew before,
Upon your surface I'll break through the crack,
And walk right out that door.

You won't stop me now,
I'll keep heading in her direction,
I will not bow,
Until we share faces in reflection.

Buried Within the Debris

This is not as easy for me,
Act like there is enough in store,
It is plain in my eye to see,
That I just want more.

You should know by now,
That I want you to be mine,
I just don't know how,
Sign my name away on the dotted line.

I make sacrifices for you,
But how long can I live with just playing letter,
Playing myself off out of view,
In hopes of something better.

Eventually I hope you find in me,
What my heart found in you,
Something special buried within the debris,
Something special long overdue.

Your happiness is all I want,
I don't care as much for my own,
You have no clue the way these boys haunt,
My dreams turn into nightmares as my heart turns to stone.

Sacred Oath

I've been such a dick to us both,
But what if you can't forget it?
I've swayed more than once from our sacred oath,
My dark passenger has been nothing but cynic.

Now I'm just gonna try and cope,
I know the past I can't conceal,
Where the hell's my hope,
When it's so hard to deal?

I just need to take this more slow,
My speed is just outrageous,
The pain pulled us into the undertow,
It is just so contagious.

I've been such a dick to us both,
But what if you can't forget it?
I've swayed more than once from our sacred oath,
My dark passenger has been nothing but cynic.

Once again I'll put my faith in you,
Gratified,
I give you my heart too,
I just hope you're satisfied.

I'm Far Too Afraid

I'm far too afraid,
Of how my words feel so mean,
To my dark passenger I'm enslaved,
It is just too hard to come clean.

The separation I have made,
From the feeling we once shared,
I'm far too afraid,
Of how little it seems I've cared.

I hate the way this sits,
In this burying flood,
It is the pain that fits,
In the mess of boiling blood.

We've made a mess of things,
My, what a mess I've caused,
And the feeling just stings,
How the happiness we've lost.

I'm far too afraid,
To smile or even wish,
As a dizzy dreamer I prayed,
That my life wouldn't end up like this.

I'm far too afraid,
Of the future and past,
In life I have a failing grade,
It can never last.

I hate the way this sits,
In this burying flood,
It is the pain that fits,
In the mess of boiling blood.

We've made a mess of things,
My, what a mess I've caused,
And the feeling just stings,
How the happiness we've lost.

There is nothing to believe of,
When your eyes have only cried,
I need your love,
Like a boy needs his mother's side.

An End or a Beginning

Where is the person I thought I knew,
That once held me so high,
The one whose hand wore through,
The blood spills from our last goodbye.

The words used to hold me together,
Pulled me into the arms of love,
What once felt right now has met the sever,
What the hell did I used to think of.

I used to trust your voice,
Until I found out it was made of lies,
You left me without a choice,
You should of had better alibis.

Moving on has never been easy,
All these secrets you used to keep,
The thought of your face now makes me queasy,
My heart just can't find its sleep.

I need a place to call my heart's home,
As I am always on the move,
A place that stays constant while my body may roam,
And someone whose voice can soothe.

Bring peace to my mind,
Give me a new start,
Who knows who I might find,
Someone so close might be the final piece to my heart.

Empty Tonight

Are you alone right now,
Because I surely don't feel right,
I leave you and vow,
That I feel empty tonight.

Use me for your own want,
Act like I should only think for you,
Your vanity is my taunt,
My dear there is nothing you can do.

You know you kill me,
He obviously makes you happy so I'm done,
I'm not the one for you I can see,
So no longer will I let you have my heart won.

I'll free myself from the chains,
I become a rolling stone,
My heart is accustomed to change,
It has never had a steady home.

Cut the throats of joy and bliss,
Waiting for you to say,
I love you too as you I already miss,
As you burn me away.

I'm the living buried among the dead,
Will I ever understand why I picked your stem,
The false hope my emotions were fed,
Do you understand what you did to them?

I'm lost and decayed,
I still question why I try,
My heart is empty and betrayed,
As you have given me reasons to die.

Here upon the nails I laid,
Searching for purpose not to die,
But as the light she may fade,
As you have given me reason to say goodbye.

Are you alone right now,
Because I surely don't feel right,
I leave you and vow,
That I feel empty tonight.

Somebody Else

The day has come,
But what is it really worth,
What are we hiding from,
No reason on earth.

Pump water like wells don't run dry,
I'll just be able to give forever,
What is the purpose to even try,
For a lie, for you, for me, whatever.

Don't call out my name,
Or anything else,
Nothing will be the same,
Can't be honest with even myself.

I don't want to talk about it,
You just make me cry,
I try so hard just to forget,
Just don't ask why.

You make me not wanna be me,
I can't just be fine,
There is no reason for me to be,
Sign me away on the dotted line.

Don't tell me you care,
I can't understand even myself,
How I feel is like drowning in despair,
Have you ever wished you were somebody else?

A Love Eclipse

The sunshine,
A shadow lays upon you,
The day is ruined in my mind,
An eclipse has destroyed my view.

The clouds can't conceal enough,
The rays that burned away my reservoir,
For the man who was struck with love,
Was crossed by the star.

He can't find his way back,
Through the dark and cold,
The pressure rises and he cracks,
In the rain's dreary hold.

Built him up and now you break him down,
He never feels the same,
No time left to turn around,
Lost his wife and name.

They just got up and left,
Blame the weather for his luck,
His heart is a victim of theft,
In your mold it's stuck.

The Hero of Memory

You got here just in time,
The show is about to begin,
Grab a seat for the perfect crime,
Let the scene soak in.

Tonight the barrier is broken,
The hero is not set to win,
Good-hearted but outspoken,
On his knees again.

Can he finally take control,
Taste triumphs flavor,
Will he save her heart and his soul,
When asked to be the savior.

The police can not always patrol,
And there is glory to savor,
To him the glass is half full,
But the battle is in his favor.

In the face of fear,
His heart and soul finally agree,
With the drop of a happy tear,
He mends her heart free.

Guided by love he will appear,
Though the hero can not see,
For he can only hear,
The hero of memory.

Ain't From Falling Down

I'm so sorry for all the pain,
Every last bruise,
I don't know how you stay sane,
Nor who to accuse.

I know you love him,
But you shouldn't allow,
His actions are so grim,
To stop it I don't know how.

I wish the scars would fade,
They ain't from falling down,
You seem so afraid,
When your drunk dad is around.

His fists are spotless,
But your skin is covered in stain,
He could careless,
About your pain.

You just hide and cry,
Act like your dad never abuses,
Keep it secret til you die,
About these black eyes and these bruises.

I wish the scars would fade,
They ain't from falling down,
You seem so afraid,
When your drunk dad is around.

Like She Did Before

Can I save my heart,
From the thief,
She tore it apart,
Brought it grief.

Is it worth it to save,
Something so empty and black,
There's more life beyond the grave,
And I don't want to take it back.

It wipes out my grin,
And I can't take this anymore,
Waiting for her to come around again,
Like she did before.

She cuts down my will,
All we do is argue,
The pain is on the edge of kill,
And she doesn't have a clue.

She says she is my best friend,
But we both know thats a lie,
My life she will end,
As tonight my heart dies.

It wipes out my grin,
And I can't take this anymore,
Waiting for her to come around again,
Like she did before.

Leave

I am so ashamed,
I can't stand to be seen,
My use is strained,
Why must I be so mean?

Hang my head,
I don't deserve to breath,
I might as well be dead,
I know you will leave.

I can't make it on my own,
On my knees I yell,
I face the storm alone,
You kill me can't you tell.

I feel the pain through the night,
Sleep is never seen,
Tears fill my sight,
And nightmares are my dreams.

I can't help but be sad,
You need to choose between us two,
I need to leave so bad,
Either you leave him or I leave you.

A Rolling Admiration

A strike of lightning,
A braced smile soon gleams,
Quite striking,
Is Jaimee McQueen.

A rolling admiration,
Skating all around,
A girl of her own creation,
Standing out in the crowd.

Warped is her kind of sound,
While she colors away,
Glimmering eyes of deep brown,
Loving the color grey.

When she wants to eat,
Raspberries are her choice,
When I pass she always greets,
With her melodic voice.

Though there's still so much to learn,
To her my hand extends;
Like an egg waiting to hatch I yearn,
For the future when we are best friends.[:

Bloodbath Scene

You put a knife in my back,
I'm finally done with your games,
Playing with my heart, give it an attack,
You act like it should always be the same.

Hold two guys in your arms at night,
And act like nothings wrong,
I should just roll with it and not fight,
Because you believe there is no line drawn.

You fucking crossed way too many times,
I guess I'm supposed to give in to you,
Cut away the worries and regrets for the crimes,
The heartbreaking things you do.

You wonder why I'm always so miserable,
And why I have a problem with you seeing his face,
Why must you be so kissable and missable?
From my tongue I still can't wash off the taste.

Go ahead and keep your hand in his,
While you rub me in the mud,
Just look at the other I used to kiss,
The hand is covered in blood.

Have fun washing your hand,
It will never come clean,
I will no longer stand,
Before you in this bloodbath scene.

Like a Baby Needs a Womb

The volcano pours out smoke,
Escape while you can,
The rope we climbed has broke,
The leap of faith has hit the fan.

There is no more solid ground,
What lesson did you teach,
These scars aren't from falling down,
The real answers are out of reach.

The shelter was never there,
Or it dissipated way too soon,
I need your love and care,
Like a baby needs a womb.

I hope it makes you smile,
And I make you proud,
All the baby scars I defile,
The silence is deafening loud.

The voices are taking control,
I can no longer hold my sanity,
The heart you stole,
Is lost in my vanity.

Everything Will Be Alright

I want to hold you so tight,
And tell you not to worry,
Everything will be alright,
There is no need to hurry.

I may seem to rush things,
Can you see the love in my eyes?
The song your smile sings,
Has began to bring on my darkness's demise.

I'll stay by your side,
And I'll show you how I care,
When the world is tearing at your inside,
Reach out your hand and I'll be there.

Because I want to hold you so tight,
And tell you not to worry,
Everything will be alright,
There is no need to hurry.

I may not be the perfect person,
We both want me to be,
You might not always be certain,
That the right guy is me.

As I may be behind the curtain,
Even if I try so hard to be good,
At times I may leave you hurtin',
But please understand this isn't Hollywood.

I just want to hold you so tight,
And tell you not to worry,
Everything will be alright,
There is no need to hurry.

Sometimes

Sometimes we wonder,
What could go wrong,
The lightning to the thunder,
Does not always last as long.

Sometimes we hold on,
The things we love we grab,
Keep them close before they're gone,
Hold on to them like they're all we have.

Because sometimes they are,
They are all we know,
Tell ourselves that salvation isn't far,
Lie for hope to grow.

We sometimes want it to be,
The light to guide our souls,
Direct us through fog we want to see,
Hovering above the burnt out coals.

Sometimes all we want to find,
Is something different or new,
Something that will bring peace of mind,
When we can't find faith in true.

Sometimes we just want to spend a while,
Sometimes all it takes is something true,
Sometimes all the difference is your smile,
Sometimes all I really want is to see you.

Last Scar

On you it is blamed,
For I have become depressed,
I am so ashamed,
I'll never find my rest.

You see my heart,
It seems to be breaking again,
Pulled it apart,
Now gone with the wind.

Thanks for the pain,
You obviously try your best,
It'd hurt less to put a bullet in my brains,
Or a dagger in my chest.

My heart is bursting again,
As I have nothing left,
Not a smirk nor a grin,
Just the poison you put in my breathe.

No more tears,
To wash it away,
No more fears,
To stop the decay.

Just rusting,
The feeling away,
No trusting,
To hold me today.

The pain makes me numb,
I feel it from so far,
Deaf, blind, and dumb,
For you've gave me my last scar.

Neglected

The way the world spins,
It's changing every day,
Moving faster than the winds,
And the words are so hard to say.

The place I stood before,
Is no longer the same,
I show you my heart you show me the door,
The most I ever get is my name.

Now we just turn our backs,
From everything we thought we knew,
Turn the train from the tracks,
My heart fell like a house of cards for you.

The time we spent together,
Never thought they'd be forgotten,
The arms of love would never,
Let their fruit turn rotten.

But now we just run away,
From all the happiness we had known,
Your heart has forsaken every day,
Every seed that had be sown.

This bond we leave neglected,
With every last letter,
This was not what I expected,
Avoiding making our lives better.

Power of Rhyme

Everyone has a calling,
An ardor in which they squander their time;
For me it is verse that catches my falling.
Such is the power of rhyme.

Words carry us away
To the reveries of tomorrow.
They guide us through the days,
Push us past the arms of sorrow.

They can express the joy,
Or the melancholy we embrace.
It is so simple to make words our toy,
Using them to traverse a bridge to a far off place.

The world is such a desolate place,
At least from time to time;
When too petrified to take it on face to face,
I turn to my rhyme.

The words can sooth,
Cleanse the psyche and heart.
When I have something to prove,
The cadence is always the start.

Once upon a time,
I encountered defeat.
I turned to my rhyme,
In the face of deceit.

I found myself missing,
Split from feeling emotion―
My heart went fishing,
A wobbly ship adrift on the ocean.

I tried to unearth something consummate,
But it is hard to grapple perfection.
It was too little too late,
And I lost to rejection.

The walls came tumbling down,
The world just took a halt;
Every smile evolved into a frown.
I thought it was my fault.

In the nadir of my abyss,
I turned to my rhyme.
I was stranded in an apocalypse,
Running out of time.

I etched my heart into paper,
And my feelings swam to the shallows.
My depression slowly began to taper,
My heart beat was no longer fallow.

The labyrinth of life
Is often too hard for a human to comprehend.
When we are buried so heavily in malice and strife,
We can never find ways to ascend.

There is a secret to solving this mystery,
Veiled within the pen,
An escape from impending history.
It is as simple as remember when.

The taste of ink
Freshly laid out in lines
Can really make someone think,
Help purify our minds.

When we slam the brakes,
But the wheels refuse to stop,
When we get the shakes
We can just feel our hearts drop.

This is when we feel alone,
We become a vacuum inside.
We feel like the whole time we should of known,
Everything was nothing more than a lie.

Where can one turn,
When everywhere we look all we find is hate?
When the loneliness just burns and burns,
We struggle to find a way to relate.

Within the rhyme,
We can find our own purity.
Time after time,
We know our secrets are locked tight in our own sense of security.

We sometimes have trouble telling a friend,
For sometimes secrets become a grudge,
But with paper we need not play pretend.
It will never judge.

Hindrances may try to derail our train,
When we discuss how we feel,
But in our rhyme we articulate our brain,
Liberate all of our zeal.

There is always a reason,
Since there is always something to say.
It does not matter the time of season,
Since rhyme is universal in an immense way.

We can use it to combat our doubt,
Or to express our disarray.
It does not matter what it is about,
But rather what happened that day.

Like the water that can soak,
Or the people that we blame,
Your feelings can be free like smoke,
Floating over flame.

We can write it all away,
The tales of our lows and prime.
There is no reason to pray
When we can trust in the power of rhyme.

Fight for Love

This choice is the biggest I'll ever make,
Who am I to ever think I can sever,
I'll fight for love's sake,
Friendship should be forever.

In essence life is scary,
As the battle is raging,
When life hangs in the hands of maybe,
You can't let bumps be phasing.

This decision is so critical,
The weight is so heavy in my view,
You make life so beautiful,
And that's why I choose you.

Oh, this fight is necessary,
I just have to search enough,
For fights are only temporary,
So I choose love.

I need to come with pride,
Who am I to think it's done,
The struggle needs to be taken in stride,
Before I ever run.

Being afraid may leave me blind,
That the war has just begun,
I couldn't live if you were left behind,
I must fight for the war to be won.

This decision is so critical,
The weight is so heavy in my view,
You make life so beautiful,
And that's why I choose you.

Oh, this fight is necessary,
I just have to search enough,
For fights are only temporary,
So I choose love.

Deep down I need to come alive,
While the love still keeps me sober,
I have to face the fight inside,
Before this war is over.

The trenches filled with tears,
Baptizing the darkness in my heart,
The happiness buried deep in my fears,
Is so close to making its start.

This decision is so critical,
The weight is so heavy in my view,
You make life so beautiful,
And that's why I choose you.

Oh, this fight is necessary,
I just have to search enough,
For fights are only temporary,
So I choose love.

You make life so beautiful,
So why did I ever choose the knife?
This final decision is so critical,
So my love chooses life.

Last Embrace

I think you know,
What I am getting at,
All this time I tried to grow,
Now all the time you're regretting that.

I wish I could stand,
On my feet and never budge,
I try to hold your hand,
But you'd rather hold your grudge.

You keep the bad breath,
Why can't we just forget?
What do I have left,
When I lost my hope at drift?

The scars will always remind me,
The regrets of my every day,
My world is hanging on threads I can't see,
When you peeled out and drove away.

Drowning in the ocean of my dreams,
The one filled with tears I created,
Where the stitches are stripped at the seams,
So far from emancipated.

Every time I end up here,
Holding each other face to face,
Could this be the final my dear,
Could this be our last embrace?

Hope Gives Up

Today life almost ended,
As the ledge crumbled below me,
The love I had befriended,
Took me to my knees.

Ignored my cries,
Tried to leave me for dead,
I could feel my heart die,
Upon my bed.

I shook and I was in shock,
Tears plagued my eyes so I couldn't see,
She tried to hide my heart behind a lock,
Hope was giving up on me.

Afraid to inflict hurt on me anymore,
The wrist just recreates the stain,
Afraid of what the future had in store,
Knowing there was much pain that will remain.

Marionette

The vultures are circling above,
As the feeling goes numb,
The feeling of love,
Is so hard to recover from.

I can run away,
But only trouble that brings,
A marionette dressed in blacks and greys,
Bound to his heart by strings.

They can jerk me around,
But I'm not giving in,
Knock me to the ground,
Make me cry again.

The tears are only temporary,
But the strings still remain,
The bowls of sorrow are so dark and scary,
Yet the feeling remains the same.

I can whine and pout,
Or just take a stand,
I cannot breakout,
From the strings in your hand.

I can run away,
But only trouble that brings,
A marionette dressed in blacks and greys,
Bound to his heart by strings.

I'll remain by your side,
Until the world takes it all away,
Whether you are my enemy or my bride,
There is no place I'd rather stay.

Find My Sleep

You've got a way,
With calming the storm,
Each and every day,
You make the most arctic warm.

It's the same old story,
It is far from making sense,
Who will find sleep for me,
When no one will come to my defense.

You're a broken record,
A cliche of manipulation,
So innocent with maleficent checkered,
A demon of my creation.

When what we loved we burned,
The fire raged so blue,
But from the ashes we yearn,
That we find your sleep too.

I'm supposed to let go,
Doing so would be obsolete,
'Cause if I do I know,
I'll forget that my heart beats.

Down on Your Knees

You try so hard to hide,
Act like it was all just a dream,
All this pain you hide inside,
You could only scream.

They are waiting in the dark,
The shadows of yesterday,
Stalking you like a shark,
Hunting you like prey.

The silence feeds their souls,
The skeletons never died,
If you let them achieve their goals,
You'd wish they were no longer alive.

So seal your closet,
As they can no longer hold back,
The slow drip of the faucet,
Soon will make you crack.

Razor sharp teeth dance around,
Slowly tearing apart,
While you look for solid ground,
They eat away at your heart.

So where will you run,
When they finally win,
No more games or fun,
Just down on your knees again.

Fairy Tale

The godmother has gone a miss,
No unicorns here,
You cannot raise the dead with a kiss,
But there is you my dear.

No dragon to spoil our day,
Or mirrors who can tell,
No witches in the way,
Yet I am under your spell.

The animals don't talk,
And the hair isn't quite that long,
The plants can not walk,
And no one is Hercules strong.

There aren't always happy ends,
And there is no genie to grant your wish,
Here there is such a thing as "just friends",
Most people never feel love at first kiss.

You can't always tell when someone lies,
But wolves can not blow,
Someone is not always there to hear your cries,
But this much I know

I may not be a prince charming,
I am no knight in shining armor,
My ways may be a bit alarming,
But my heart is all the warmer.

There may be no bean stalk that grew,
To me you are the holy grail,
Every time I think of you,
I feel like I am in a fairy tale. <3

Burned Alive

It has been so long,
Since you fell from the sky,
What once seemed so strong,
Has gone missing from your eye.

You used to at least like me,
But I shouldn't expect anyone should,
I try too hard for you and I,
And I would give you the world if I could.

For now I must just live with the truth,
And hope to in the future strive,
Let you live your youth,
While I'm but a lover burned alive.

Even through the darkest hour,
I remain faithful to the one I long,
I do what I can with little power,
But this is what you wanted all along.

For me to stand without you being mine,
Maybe you will see,
That I'm not wasting time,
But time is wasting me.

For now I must just live with the truth,
And hope to in the future strive,
Let you live your youth,
While I'm but a lover burned alive.

Burns are only external,
Pain brings in the dark,
The flame is eternal,
Inside my heart.

I can't contain the fire,
I don't know what to do,
What if my burning desire,
Decides to burn you?

For now I must just live with the truth,
And hope to in the future strive,
Let you live your youth,
While I'm but a lover burned alive.

Maybe we're wasting time,
Or time is wasting we,
Maybe this feeling is my crime,
Perhaps time is what is really burning me.

Fell So Far Part III

I am one trip away from a melt down,
One step left of solid ground,
I've became a burdensome disease,
Brought to my knees, I'm begging please....

Take me into your grasp,
I want to forever clasp,
To you so I never have to let go,
It will never be easy I know.

All my life I've been on the ledge,
Every failure pushes me closer to the edge,
Being in love gives me hope to make it,
But every time I hand you my heart you break it.

I'm hanging on the cliff, too weak to crawl,
Waiting for you to catch my fall,
I only can take so much before I melt away,
With every break a piece of my heart meets decay.

And I fight for so long, trying to beat it,
My insecurities are always there to keep me beated;
I hide from my shadow to escape my own treason,
For every heartbreak I know you have a justifiable reason.

All my life I've been on the ledge,
Every failure pushes me closer to the edge,
Being in love gives me hope to make it,
But every time I hand you my heart you break it.

I feel the pain, it is so terrible,
I hand it to you, but please be careful,
This may be the last chance at life,
I don't see more pity on the knife.

Check Me Off Your List

It is so hard to move on,
So difficult to relax,
If I turn my head you could be gone,
I still feel like that's the fact.

You'd be in the arms of a guy,
What happened to the care I used to see,
How hard do I have to try,
For faithfulness to me?

Can I ever feel secure,
When my love to you is a waste,
Your words feel so impure,
And in my heart I feel replaced.

It is too late now,
The pain is afflicted,
Searching for an answer not knowing how,
To live without you when I'm addicted.

The audience has stopped clapping,
They know I can not just get by,
They can't tell if I'm laughing,
'Cause every other word there is a tear in my eye.

I will stay with you forever,
But is that long enough,
Can I pull myself together,
To make it through the rough.

I am so careless of my heart,
I'm sure that was the reason I was stung,
I tear myself apart,
With your clumsy tongue.

If I give all that I can,
If I can actually persist,
Will you choose to hold my hand,
Or cross me off the list?

Fell So Far Part II

I am so lost,
Trying to be it,
What will it cost,
To truly leave it.

The picture is in levitation,
It kills me to think it,
Can I get a revelation,
To help me be needed.

I am still falling so hard,
The image has my defeated,
All the feelings so barred,
Have me depleted.

The truth is disguised,
In every smile I've been faking,
You wouldn't be surprised,
That your tongue made me forsaken.

I give all I have,
To keep in my crys,
My heart in half,
When I know I need say goodbye.

I am still falling so hard,
The image has my defeated,
All the feelings so barred,
Have me depleted.

And as the light disintegrates,
I'm left to face my demons,
My heart's hope dissipates,
So far from freedom.

Fell So Far Part I

I've become a dead tree,
In the middle so hollow,
What happened to me,
The hope in my heart is so shallow.

When it was you I had,
I took you for granted,
It feels like its ending so bad,
Dropping the one blessing life handed.

I tried so hard,
To be what you needed,
I fell so far,
From where I was feeted.

I cried so hard,
But you were conceited,
I dropped my guard,
My heart so deceited.

The failures come in,
I'm dropping to my knees,
I dipped into sin,
Sailed the crimson seas.

I relived the memory,
Trying to make you believe it,
That I am not the enemy,
But I was still defeated.

I tried so hard,
To be what you needed,
I fell so far,
From where I was feeted.

I cried so hard,
But you were conceited,
I dropped my guard,
My heart so deceited.

The Perfect Me

When I wish upon a star,
The clouds shroud their light,
Hope has never made it far,
Through the dark lonely night.

It is too early to act,
Wasting time waiting to see,
I am hiding from the fact,
That time is wasting me.

Trying to be the perfect one,
The boy I will never be,
Never be the one to stun,
I can only dream of a perfect me.

Reality will never know him,
As I will never feel secure,
The light is wearing dim,
To be in the arms of her.

How can I evolve,
To be the boy I must,
Will my life stop to revolve,
In the hands I trust.

Can I stay alive,
Down on my knees again?
By myself can I strive,
Is being myself ever enough to win?

Sickness is Myself

In the face of change,
I turn my head to the wall,
Am I just too scared to rearrange,
Afraid that it will end it all.

The voices in my head speak,
Telling me it'll be just like what I'm use to,
Day after day just feeling weak,
Living lonely and empty, nothing new.

I should just go with the flow,
Let you live for ya,
Let the feelings come and go,
But in my heart there's too much paranoia.

Right now I can't help being snapped,
A pile of blank pages on the shelf,
Inside my heart I know I'm trapped,
Knowing the sickness is myself.

Touch So Real

Everything seems to be just about right,
Coming together before my eyes,
It seems so bright in the dead of the night,
Waves gently crashing as the sun rises.

The breeze softly kisses my supple cheek,
Painting it with a lively crimson red,
Blowing my hair so it flows nice and sleek,
All while laying upon my nimble bed.

A picture perfect life awaits for me,
Where my exhaustion slowly starts to heal,
Everything important I can see,
Hard to believe yet the touch is so real.

All of my memories within this keep,
All locked tightly in the arms of sleep.

The Delicate Flower

A world of aesthetics lives in the green,
Beauty is the form it soon will assume,
Hidden away where it will not be seen,
Until spring gives birth to the flower bloom.

Nourished by the vibrant rays of the sun,
And cold rain showers to keep it alive,
All of earth's purest essences in one,
Polymerized for tranquility to strive.

The petals lay before curious eyes,
Telling stories of what nature may hold,
From the time it blooms to the time it dies,
From the most hot to the brutalest cold.

So graceful yet possesses much power,
The beauty of the delicate flower.

Feels Like a Dream

Standing aside,
Drifting off in time,
Eyes set with pride,
As if love were a crime.

Staring right into the pristine,
The radiance envelops the trees,
The most beautiful thing I'd ever seen,
All poised in front of me.

She turned to me and said,
"This world is so full of lies,
And sometimes love seems dead,
But I still see it in your eyes.

Never lose that gleam,
So we have no set length,
'Cause when I'm beside you it feels like a dream,
With a heart saturated with strength".

I smile as I turn away,
With a tear in the pit of my eye,
I said "that will be the day,
We will be eternal and never die.

While our bodies may dry,
And our voices may be gone,
The time can pass us by,
But our love goes on."

Colors in My Heart

I was walking the line,
Living just to survive,
Just a stalagmite in a diamond mine,
A car unfit to drive.

One day I met you,
So innocent and nice,
I was caught in the rear-view,
With memories cold as ice.

When I encountered love,
I tried to run and hide,
My friends from up above,
Were locked up inside.

But with your smile you melted away,
The ice that encased my heart,
The way you made it sway,
Made my fears fall apart.

You changed the colors in my heart,
From the dullest grays to the lightest green,
I knew you were the one from the start,
That would wash me clean.

Clean of the blood,
And sorrow that blanketed my emotion,
Irrigate the waters of the flood,
To uncover my love and devotion.

Now I awake,
Wake up still alone,
But for now this I can take,
As you are as close as my phone.

It makes me want more,
To hold you with pride,
Only the future knows what is in store,
But all I want is you be my side.

In Love

Wake up in bed,
With you by my side,
Breakfast being fed,
Couldn't be happier if I tried.

Your hand in mine,
Nestled tightly against me,
We are just two grapes on the vine,
Two leaves in the tree.

But we fit as one,
So perfectly we combine,
If I am the moon she is the sun,
So perfect, almost divine.

Affection is never quite so sweet,
As between us too,
When we snuggle or our lips meet,
We feel complete, me and you.

I can taste the bliss,
In every kiss it has grew,
You have no clue how sweet it is,
To be in love with you.

Toni's Valentine Poem

Heart to heart,
Breath to breath,
Since the start,
Until the death.

This love will be,
Forever and true,
Felt by me,
And hopefully you.

Safe and secure,
A door locked tight,
A feeling so pure,
So full of light.

A hope to mature,
And hold so tight,
Life we shall endure,
Each and every night.

Warmth of fire,
Comfortably aimed,
Today comes to the wire,
And love may be claimed.

Light the candle,
And please be mine,
If my love you can handle,
Please be my valentine.

Pass the Time

Your hands are so gentle,
Your arms so warm,
A smile full of beautiful dental,
And a tummy soft in form.

Your eyes speak to me,
Twinkling in my gaze,
With a heart ready to break free,
And onto the next phase.

When it is just you and me,
Breaking through to the other side,
Past the hold of the enemy,
Together as husband and bride.

We will be finding home,
Sealed tight in every kiss,
Through life we roam,
A world of bliss.

Our pain will be enfolded in dust,
'Cause I won't let us carry it,
The past we will not trust,
But we won't bury it.

When it is just you and me,
Breaking through to the other side,
Past the hold of the enemy,
Together as husband and bride.

We will pass the time,
But time won't pass us by,
Eternal love forever in prime,
Is gift of my.

Forever starts today,
Forever my friend,
Forever I stay,
Forever will never end.

When it is just you and me,
Breaking through to the other side,
Past the hold of the enemy,
Together as husband and bride.

In My Arms Tonight

Look upon this bed,
Find that once lost light,
On my chest lays your head,
You're in my arms tonight.

The precious time here,
Where we are at peace,
Are the moments I hold dear,
I won't let anyone pierce its fleece.

These butterflies flutter,
In my tummy they tickle,
They melt my heart like butter,
Every time you giggle.

When you are in my lap,
With your arms around my neck,
My tongue turns to sap,
And you have my heart in check.

Than you kiss me,
And I bask in your light,
I just feel so free,
When you hold me so tight.

These butterflies flutter,
In my tummy they tickle,
They melt my heart like butter,
Every time you giggle.

You smile with droopy eyes,
Such a cute sight,
Will you fall asleep by surprise,
In my arms tonight?

Clumsy

My hand hangs low,
The past is here to claim,
My life has to go,
As I feel like I will never be the same.

I remember every tear,
So vividly running down my face,
Every moment of it I still fear,
But I don't ever want to embrace.

I can't think this is easy,
To relive the past events,
My shallow heart is clumsy,
Happiness they prevent.

I'd give it all,
For this March to be new,
To for once not fall,
If only I had you.

Maybe You Just Have to Live in Someone Elses Arms

It is so hard to move on,
When I feel so close,
Any chance I'd ever have is long gone,
If only there was worth in almost.

The reflection isn't whole,
Being half there isn't meant to be,
Won't you claim the heart you stole,
The heart you stole from me?

Where is the hand that feeds,
When I want to catch your glance?
Like a book anyone could read,
That I have not a chance.

I want to run,
Before I accept the truth,
Eyes shooting at me like guns,
Aiming to scar my youth.

I want you to want me,
But I will never get hold you,
Life can never be that easy,
And we both know that's true.

When I try and speak,
All I ever do is hesitate,
I go home and my eyes leak,
Until so very late.

This void I must,
Accept and say ado,
Spend my life in lust,
I never will be let close to you.

Everything

We fit so well together,
Like a garden and a gnome,
I want this place to be forever,
I've found a home.

Now I feel that this is what I need,
Enough to make my heart sing,
Not the type to just kiss and breed,
Cause I want her to be my everything.

Nothing else feels so secure,
Safe from the world I see,
The shine of her eyes so pure,
With her arms wrapped around me.

I should of known better,
Than to hide from this place,
I was too busy playing letter,
To remember the feel of her embrace.

I am so lost in a stare,
With my hands on your thighs,
I can't look away from her glistening hair,
And drop dead gorgeous eyes.

I can no longer resist,
I just want to make you sing,
To be all I can I persist,
Its my turn to be your everything.

Bleeding Alone

I need something to rely on,
A gateway to where we used to be,
I need a home so I can be gone,
But there is no home when my heart is not free.

Now I am just on my own,
Seconds away from losing it all,
Knocked on the door and no ones home,
Nothing worse than being alone when you fall.

All of my once vibrant visions,
Never seemed quite so trivial,
Sometimes it seems like my heart is one incision,
Left open, shut off from all that is convivial.

We lost our home,
All we have is a place unknown,
On our own,
But only I feel all alone.

Our hearts beat as one,
Biting the hand that feeds,
What can be done,
When mine is the only one that bleeds?

The Simple Things

Our hearts are pounding,
Face to face we stare,
The future before us is astounding,
All of the problems we will bear.

There is nothing to run away from,
As the pages of our lives turn,
No need to be deaf blind and dumb,
Just know that my love is stern.

We trudge on like soldiers,
Marching for the war has begun,
We are unmovable boulders,
Together we can face what we've done.

Just stand our ground,
Never turn away,
We can not be drowned,
As long as we have the will to stay.

So what are we waiting for,
We have to fight for what we feel,
There is a world for us to explore,
But we need to claim our own zeal.

We trudge on like soldiers,
Marching for the war has begun,
We are unmovable boulders,
Together we can face what we've done.

So when we are broken down,
Remember that the deepest valleys are not too low,
A smile is stronger than a frown,
And our strength is all I am sure I know.

It is the simple things,
The words that you say,
All the hope your word brings,
That get me through the day.

We trudge on like soldiers,
Marching for the war has begun,
We are unmovable boulders,
Together we can face what we've done.

Nothing ever has been so hard,
Than to think of where you are,
He might take your heart,
Yet I still feel that you aren't too far.

Maybe you are thinking of the same simple things,
The words that I say,
All the hope my word brings,
That get you through the day.

You'll Never See

With the sorrow in my eyes,
My hope is wearing dim,
Every thought I have brings out cries,
If you want to be held go to him.

Don't come to me,
Hoping for me to give in,
No glasses will ever make you see,
That I may never hold again.

I feel too cold,
The ice is freezing inside,
My love you sold,
So his lips could be tried.

This is a resignation,
I won't back down,
Three cheers for celebration,
When I won't be around.

I hope you are happy now,
You never wanted me anyways,
Take a bow,
You'll have better days.

Forget the time we spent together,
May the choice haunt you,
Even if my love is forever,
Didn't mean I'd step aside for everything you do.

Hold Me Together

The way you move,
Haunts me every day,
The things that used to sooth,
Now are the sirens of decay.

I fight and let it near,
Saying I'll never love another,
But to you that goes in one ear,
Right out the other.

Sometimes I think,
That the lack of her severely sickens me,
Like a ship without buoyancy I sink,
In the depths of the sea.

Will I ever press on,
Will this pain ever fade away?
Have the best parts come and gone,
Will love ever find a way?

Buried beneath sheets of ice,
My heart is shattered forever,
I don't know if I'll let go of my vice,
But can you hold my heart together?

Part of the Cast

I hide behind this face,
Tears heavier than can be weighed,
My heart is a disgrace,
With all the blood its paid.

My depression is hard to approach,
Deceit and emptiness holding a grudge,
It crawls in like a cockroach,
No one can ever seem to make it budge.

I never pull myself out,
When my head is below the wave,
My will is too shallow and stout,
And my heart is short of brave.

I'd rather deal with pain,
Just let it control me,
With scars my skin it stains,
So easy to see.

I'm sorry for the scars,
And how I take forever to heal,
Laying under the stars,
You must know how it is all so real.

The universe is vast,
Most of it is empty space,
I'm a part of that cast,
And for now, that is what you need embrace.

Not a Beat

Hands are shaking,
And I can't breath,
Heart is breaking,
And I can't leave.

A withered face,
In a crowd of liars and cheats,
A desolate place,
Where the heart never beats.

I have a deadly wish,
But it needs to be realized,
There is nothing to miss,
Death isn't surprised.

I've called his name,
Several times before,
Every cry the same,
His grace I implore.

I have a path to follow,
Demonize the love I've know,
The fucked up situation is hollow,
Born without a back bone.

Marching the scars,
To remind me to quit,
The feeling that was ours,
Seems so full of shit.

The Prison of Sorrow

The pain I feel inside,
Making me feel like nothings left,
Of course I lied,
I tore my flesh.

My corpse is at a funeral,
I'll never attend,
My hopes, I burned them all,
Why do I even pretend.

Can't save me,
From what has become,
Too plain to see,
That I'll die young.

Come take me from this,
Dig my grave,
A withered heart in an empty abyss,
In blood it bathes.

Never trust me when I say I'm okay,
I collapse when under pressure,
To myself I am prey,
Loneliness makes me nothing or lesser.

This burning beneath the skin,
Make it go away,
Decimate the hope again,
Like every other Valentine's day.

Crawling for salvation,
But the misery persists,
Not cut out for a relation,
Only for a slit of the wrist.

I Hope It Will Keep You Warm

Don't look back,
Keep headstrong towards your bout,
Into my arms just relax,
I won't let the fire burn out.

The oppression in which you live your life,
Where you've been stripped of what is yours,
Don't let him steal your blithe,
Keep him from making tears pour.

He doesn't know of your worth,
It is stronger than he could ever comprehend,
I'll keep you warm through this frigid dearth,
And for that on me you can depend.

But you must hold your head,
Hold it high,
This cold is only temporary upon your bed,
The fervent will return so don't cry.

And if you can't feel the heat,
Look in you heart,
Even though we have yet to meet,
I've kept you warm since the start.

Rainy Kiss

The storm we are under,
I know it will allow us,
The passion booms like the thunder,
To bring us to our solace.

Let the rain come down,
And wash away the sorrow,
Drown out the problems,
So only we will be there for tomorrow.

Change please come tonight,
For this sadness we disdain,
Purify beneath the moon light,
Where we can kiss in the rain.

The clouds in the sky,
May be dull and gray,
Within the clouds rain lies,
Waiting to break away.

It will cleanse the malice,
Erode the sorrow in bliss,
I know it will not fail us,
When in the rain we kiss.

Wreckage of Victory

If only I knew,
I would be able to make it right,
Instead I have no clue,
Of how to recreate the light.

Remember when we used to be so blithe,
When everything seemed so consummate,
That was the life,
But now it isn't quite as great.

The floors are falling in,
And I know not what to do,
If only we could stand on our feet again,
We would be able to make it through.

Everyday had became a bout,
Fighting for a smile,
Looking for rain in a desert of drought,
It even has run dry in the Nile.

Will we ever return,
To know vivacity like we used to,
Please let the fire burn,
That is all I can ask of you.

Because when I fall asleep,
Your face is all I see,
And I feel it down deep,
That this can be.

We can stand in wreckage of victory,
If only you give it a chance,
Let's rejuvenate all the memories,
And bring back this romance.

I still have hope within,
Which is rare you know,
It takes two to make it full again,
The time known a while ago.

I know the answer is in there,
Our hearts contain what may ensue,
You know I care,
You know I love you.

Pour Yourself a Glass

I know how you feel,
The times are not the best,
We try so hard to deal,
But with compassion I can't impress.

It may seem rough,
But I know we will traverse just fine,
We just have to stay tough,
And keep each other in line.

I'll be there through it all,
I refuse to turn my back,
Happiness will make its call,
If we trace our tracks.

I'll try my hardest,
If you give it your all,
Our bond we will harness,
To prevent our fall.

As long as the stars burn,
Until I find eternal sleep,
I promise these tables will turn,
And this promise I'll always keep.

This charade will never last,
Soon happiness provides the proof,
From my heart, pour yourself a glass,
This is but a trial of our youth.

Taste the love on your tongue,
It will make it easier to survive the storm,
Release the poison from each lung,
And let the love fill them and keep you warm.

Collapsed Breath

When the sun cracked the sky,
And her eyes pierced right through,
The thoughts left to run me dry,
The collapse of my heart was you.

The light that had guided the way,
So many joyous steps,
Was it too much to ask you to stay,
When you just stood up and left?

The three words that held me so high,
Were the becoming of my death,
Those wings you gave me to fly,
Was the stealer of my breath.

The voice that filled my mind,
Was it to blame?
The lives we left behind,
The ice that became of the flame.

The promises I held so tight,
Do they also haunt you?
Was asphyxiating me the right,
Leaving me low and blue.

The three words that held me so high,
Were the becoming of my death,
Those wings you gave me to fly,
Was the stealer of my breath.

Was there any fire burning,
Even from the start?
The love was never stirring,
Within your frigid heart.

These feelings were only a joke,
That is all they were to you,
And this dark empty smoke,
All over your face it imbrues.

The three words that held me so high,
Were the becoming of my death,
Those wings you gave me to fly,
Was the stealer of my breath.

Love Struck Bride

She should feel so good,
The way she knows she should,
In a silky white dress,
She is feeling the stress.

All she has to look forward to,
Is to say I do.
To her the blue sky has turned gray,
As she just wants to throw it all away.

She locked herself in her room,
This isn't the man she wants as her groom.
The blood had never dried,
For this once love struck bride.

The life used to be great,
The kisses so passionate, the nights so late,
The arms so warm, once were the standard fashion,
What ever happened to all the passion?

It all died when he left that night,
Waited til the stars weren't so bright,
The real love never came back,
The train went off track.

This groom never was the same,
The love could never be reclaimed,
She walks down the aisle terrified,
This once love struck bride.

Hungover

The things we think about at night,
Are never more than fear,
We all tend to run towards the light,
When it seems so near.

A wall may lay ahead,
But that has never stopped us before,
All the thoughts which you've been fed,
Should never be taken as more.

Anything you hear,
Makes you want to believe,
Look deep in the mirror,
Dust off the shoulders to relieve.

Wake up thinking of him,
It makes you feel hungover,
Your head hurts even when the light is dim,
Wishing that of him you were sober.

I'll never let you fall,
As long as you have faith in me,
I know beneath it all,
That soon of this hangover you'll be free.

Thin Breath

Late night is on the rise,
And the weight of regret I feel,
The rush of my demise,
If seems oh so real.

All is silent,
Yet I hear so much sound,
The voices appear violent,
Asking if salvation can be found.

A blank visage looking for an answer,
In the face of change I tremble,
This fear has turned to cancer,
Cause this place and my past resemble.

And all the memories and reverie,
Can't fade and be overcome,
An empty heart lacking a pulse delivery,
Left hopeless and numb.

The mind remembers this place,
Instilled with trepidation and fear,
The trite of this cliche envelops my face,
As I wanted to forget that I was here.

The atmosphere was so cold,
As I and my love had met a divide,
This place where her I used to hold,
Where tears still freeze when I cry.

The loneliness has taken its toll,
As my last breath is wearing thin,
Vanity has finally became full,
I will never be able to hold again.

Outer Space

A dim lit room,
Can see the intimacy flutter,
I await to be her future groom,
Hoping she will be the bread to my butter.

And as the joy slithers in the air,
My lips collide with hers,
I caress her softly gleaming hair,
As the words make her purrs.

This love will never be decrepit,
As long as I can feel her embrace,
And if the sky is the limit,
Her voice has me in outer space.

All that I had hoped to find,
I found in her from the start,
Creating my peace of mind,
From the radiance of her heart.

Under gray skies,
She somehow brings luster,
Even during the pits of my demise,
Somehow she makes me muster.

This love will never be decrepit,
As long as I can feel her embrace,
And if the sky is the limit,
Her voice has me in outer space.

Higher

Nothing is quite the same,
As spending my life with you,
It is more than just the name,
But the love that sees it through.

I could do without,
All of the money and possessions,
That is not what happiness is all about,
It is the person you love that brings life's lesson.

A single smile,
Is worth more than any franchise,
And nothing is more worth while,
Than the butterflies I get from your eyes.

The lips that make me fly,
Will take me higher than any drug,
And whenever I happen to die,
I'd know that it is okay for my grave to be dug.

All is alright because I feel complete,
When I know you will rest in my arms forever,
Later on in the heavens we will once again meet,
We are meant to always be together.