Evolve

My form seems ill-equipped,
It can not seem to fill your needs,
So I place this old me in a crypt,
To become someone which feeds;

It still will be very sweet,
But it won't seek to influence decisions,
A step closer to being complete,
From your matters there will be division.

When you spill shame on the floor,
I will turn my head away,
I won't affect your choice anymore,
All that stops today.

So I lay my head down as I evolve,
A new me will awake from this choice,
Your problems he will never solve,
For I have taken away his voice.

Dream's Composition

When you've grown tired of it all,
Laid yourself out on your bed,
Where dream's composition will call,
While you lay down your sweet head 

Tonight you sleep,
In hopes of a new day,
In your dreams you keep,
The light that guides our way.

That will lead us to solace,
And steer us towards comfort,
In the night they shall call on us,
On our own mission covert.

Here we are assigned,
To the people we want to see,
All inside your mind,
You learn with who you want to be.

When you awake none of it was real,
And the new day you hoped for is here,
But it is up to you to remember how you feel,
And to remember who it truly is you want so dear.

Good People

A good person isn't judged by perfection, nor by the number of mistakes they make.
They are judged by their will to make things right. Their will to admit to people when they messed up, to seek out redemption for what they have done. Sometimes it can be scary to have to tell someone something you aren't proud of. But good people do even though they know it might not end well for them. But at the end of the day, good people will be acknowledged, for even when they might lose something dear, they still do the right thing. And that takes guts. And it is the people who accept their punishment, who will rise from the rest, as true, good, people.

Gave You Something

How does it feel to be on your back,
To know that you've gave it away,
A salute to everything you had done,
Maybe next time you'll choose a different way.

You're trapped in your magical tale,
A fictional place which has became your game,
How didn't you see that it would bite you in the ass,
Now I watch you choke on the shame.

Well this is my complaint,
Why did you think it was right,
That was my world,
That you shattered tonight.

Well this is my hope,
But now it's all done,
We had a dream but you left it,
That was my girl, and she was the best one.

Now you whine it hurts so much,
But what can I do,
You acted on impulse,
You didn't think it through.

You took her away,
Thanks for nothing,
I miss the way she'd make me feel,
I hope this gave you something.

Perception is the Key

This is not the end,
It's just the beginning,
And can't you tell,
That this isn't pretend,
This isn't the ninth innning,
Can't you tell?

Your life isn't stopping,
Your friends aren't retreating,
And don't you know,
The sadness is dropping,
Your heart is still beating,
Don't you know?

The pain is going,
It won't bother you forever,
And can't you see,
The rain is slowing,
And we will be together,
Can't you see?

The tides are turning,
Mistakes in the light,
And don't you feel,
The fire's burning,
And the truth feels right,
Don't you feel?

Tell, know, see, feel,
Sense will help you choose,
And perception is the key,
That it is obvious what is real,
In order not to ever lose,
Perception is the key.

Slaughtering My Lamb

I always thought if I worked hard enough,
Love would find its way out of the rough,
And into my arms it would find home,
Into my heart it would roam.

I always thought it would feel so liberating,
For several silhouettes to be masquerading,
Through my ventricles and into the atrium,
But alas all I pour in is only an act of matyrdom.

Just me giving my life away,
Just you painting my insides grey,
Slaughtering my lamb to show all that I would do,
But in the end it doesn't mean what I hoped to you.

It's like I'm pouring all my blood down a drain,
Paying my dues yet the loan doesn't give me name,
Instead my arteries harden from the build up of grime,
A little false hope has turned into a huge waste of time.

While I am displacing tears for what should be forgotten,
The investment I've made is out spoiling rotten,
The purity is long since lost and ever spilling its worth upon the floor,
It's hands spread from five to seven to the devil's scepter it's opened the door.

And now it feels that all is lost,
With his heart being placed at high cost,
But this horse is in last place,
An all-in bet is dead to his disgrace.

I put my soul in this last ditch attempt,
For you to save me in an act to redempt,
The feeling that you threw under the bus,
All for someone else I knew I could never trust.

But another calls out your name from down the hall,
You've become a chew toy and he knows he has your all,
I'm on the failing cusp of what I have left and I have no where left to turn,
Will you save me from the hell you've thrown me into or just let me burn?

What did I do to deserve all of this,
Sure my mistakes have gone to piss,
But at least I care for you when you're in need,
Instead of just use you to cheat.

I tried so hard,
To be your trump card,
I've tried for so long,
To take you along.

But even after you had all I granted,
You threw away all you were handed,
Because what I have to offer is never enough,
A pretended interest of yours was just a bluff.

Why do I still want you so bad,
If you are something I never had,
Even when I have nothing left to give,
I still try to make you more, to spill every last drop of my life to live.

A Crack in the Surface

The aching minutes ticking away,
A change in direction towards a different day,
Leaving the path buried in the sand,
Throwing away the truth at hand.

The promises left unkept,
Have left this path unswept,
But it's just stubbornness holding us back,
The ever expanding crack.

It's all just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

Fighting our hearts against a strain,
Fighting the fire we can't contain,
We burn under the power we can't control,
Falling into our own black hole.

Hovering over the coal,
The smoldering ash gone cold,
Hoping for it to still glow from gray,
So it can become a torch to guide the way.

It's just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

We condemn each other to say we're right,
Bloody our knuckles to say we won the fight,
But under these smiles hides a frown,
All these endings are slowing us down.

We breath in the smoke,
The last of this hope that hasn't broke,
Looking to sweep away the sand from the end,
That has buried away our lost friend.

It's just a crack in the surface,
A friendship left in the wrong place,
A forgotten memory,
A hope left in the debris.

A crack in the surface,
A crack in the surface of my heart,
A drop it can not survive,
A drop self-inflected,
To prove that what we thought was broken,
Was just a crack in the surface. 

Ignis Aurumque

Nunc tandem video
(Now I see at last)
Futurum esse in meam praeteritam.
(That the future is in my past.)
Tessellata caela sunt monstantes mihi
(Mosiac skies are showing me)
Quomodo timeam ne amor capiam me.
(How I am afraid that love will take me over)
Forsitan, transformabo.
(Maybe, I'll transform)

Trans caelum,
(Across the sky,)
Stellae correxerunt;
(The stars have aligned;)
Sunt figens ulterius quam habent aeternum ante.
(They are shooting farther than they have ever before)
Omnia tempora manserunt tamdiu;
(All this time has lasted so long)
Fio in ignis aurumque.
(I am becoming fire and gold.)

Fulmen in has alas,
(Lightning in these wings,)
Ardet me super,
(Burn me upwards)
Ad meliores res,
(To those greater things,)
Et nunc belligaro,
(And now I'm waging war,)
Aperire januam clausam.
(To open the door I closed.)

Trans caelum,
(Across the sky,)
Stellae correxerunt;
(The stars have aligned;)
Sunt figens ulterius quam habent aeternum ante.
(They are shooting farther than they have ever before)
Omnia tempora manserunt tamdiu;
(All this time has lasted so long)
Fio in ignis aurumque.
(I am becoming fire and gold.)

Shooting Stars

The moon was risen up in the sky,
A night worth recollecting another time,
Even after a year has passed me by,
I can still recite it so clearly in my mind.

A random encounter between two,
Both unknowing that anything would result,
After only a few hours faith in us grew,
For once nothing was at fault.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

It all started with two unnamed pets,
You named them Woody and Jesse,
A first impression which I'll never regret,
Never giving a chance to second guess me.

Twenty minutes after,
I broke down who you were,
The starting of a brand new chapter,
The birth of an all powerful cure.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

Than I left for a few hours,
To visit some friends from my past,
A encounter turned sour,
By awkwardness that ever lasts.

I came back disgusted and sent a text,
Hoping that you would answer me back,
I never guessed what would happen next,
I had no idea we would lay new tracks.

And the stars were shooting left and right,
Farther than they ever did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

Within three days we liked one another,
So quick had we found everything we each yearned,
We discovered solace in each other,
A new flame in ours started to burn.

Nineteen days later I asked for your hand,
And your mom interrupted,
My heartbeat was faster than I could stand,
I was so nervous when you said yes, my heart erupted.

That night the stars were shooting left and right,
Even farther than they did before,
A picturesque sight for us that night,
A foreshadowing for something greater in store.

And even now when it has come and gone,
I'd never give up that time we spent,
Because for three months my heart was strong,
From a girl that to me was heaven sent.

You weren't perfect but no one is,
But I swear you were perfect for me,
And I hope you look back upon this,
And sometime, we can once again be.

Under the same moon we stand,
Even if hundreds of miles apart,
And still through the distance we will be holding hand,
Forever intertwined in our own hearts.

Watching these stars,
Shooting through the sky's heart,
Just like Cupid's arrow through ours,
Deeper in me then it was from the start.

11/12/2012

It's been a year since the best day,
And I still remember it so well,
I wish you could feel the way,
The thought makes my heart swell.

Swell with the passion you gave me that night,
The hope you planted in my head,
When you took me by the hand and made life bright,
Making a connection that twinkles still ahead.

It may be naive to look so far into the future,
And lay bricks so far apart,
We've come so far since our overture,
We've became so close since the start.

From Woody and Jesse,
To Brian Purrlacher and Kitty Cent,
Though some times our relationship has been messy,
I still feel that finding each other was heaven sent.

How small was the chance of us finding each other,
There has to be a reason we were given this treasure
Together we fit as a hopeful father and loving mother,
Looking for a family to last us forever.

Something real to realize what once was but a dream,
It is so close yet we can not yet hold it tight,
But I promise you its as real as the air may seem,
This ever shining light.

It may be naive to plan ahead,
For what seems so very far away,
To meet each other and even wed,
But ask yourself this:
"Would it be worth to await that very day?"

And tonight when I look on,
Into the same stars that you see,
I'll  say that I'll give until I'm all gone,
Just to show all that you mean to me.