It Is Missing

What is going on?
It all came so quick,
And now you're gone,
And I feel sick.

Something here is amiss,
But I don't know what,
I feel no bliss,
I am stuck in a rut.

The world no longer spins,
I never smile,
All of my actions are sins,
Yet I'm depressed all a while.

For something is gone,
Tears me apart,
I knew what was going on,
When she left she took my heart.

My Apocalypse

As I am dying,
My eyes fix on you,
Looking to be saved from the lying,
But you haven't a clue.

You stand there,
And smile like all is well,
You stop and stare,
As I burn in Hell.

The roar of your voice,
Helps sustain,
Through this air so moist,
In the land of the insane.

You're such a misfit,
In this world of the forsaken,
Where I drown in society's spit,
To belong here you're mistaken.

You don't want to live here,
You'll be cut by glassid lips,
There is much to fear,
Within my apocalypse.

Final Request

I let go,
Hardest decision I ever made,
Yet I know,
It fit her grade.

It hurts so bad,
To know I let go of the one I love,
It makes me sad,
To know I still long for her there of.

But unlike when she was with me,
She is actually happy more,
And who am I to make her be,
Any less than before.

I just wish I could have her,
But I know I deserve her not,
My will is but a blur,
And here in Hell I rot.

But at least one,
Of us can feel wanted,
But we are done,
And to me I feel taunted.

I will never,
Get another chance,
Our ties sever,
And I do not get a dance.

I wish that I could hold,
Her one last time,
I want to be in the old,
So I wrote this rhyme.

It is here to remind me,
Of all the things I miss,
For everyone to see,
Before the bullet I may kiss.

We Live In Dreams

We have been waiting,
For so long to prevail,
Spent our time relating,
Never taking time to exhale.

We failed to stop and think,
To realize there is something missing,
And as we are blind with every blink,
We spend our time with pointless wishing.

So this is your chance,
To make everything right,
Take a new glance,
And see the brightness of the light.

Feel the warmth of this radiance,
And notice that perhaps there is more,
In these words find the cadence,
And hear the echoing roar.

It is here that we find,
Nothing is as it seems,
But we can change our mind,
For when together we live in dreams.

All Along

So here is the truth,
You were right all along,
A lie among youth,
I was lost in the wrong.

Digging a hole deep in the ground,
Where my life I did spend,
Waiting for a sound,
Wind up lost in the end.

It is hard to know what's real,
When you are not,
With each and every moment I steal,
When you are all I got.

So let's run away,
Just me and you,
We don't have to stay,
In order to pursue.

Don't worry,
I was fine all along,
Though the future is blurry,
I will grow strong.

For you are all I need,
To change my ways,
You can sow the seed,
To bring better days.

Bliss

Why must you feel,
This maleficent urge?
How can you deal,
And still emerge?

Sometimes being close,
To the downfall of your sanity,
Is just like an overdose,
An example of living in vanity.

And you want to feel the rush,
Of tearing your skin apart,
It's but a crush,
Why should you act like you have a heart?

You don't cut,
For the same reason you want to,
You may care about her but,
All she's done is hurt you.

Get me out of this Hell,
With my seizure-like finger,
And it's will to propel,
Dead on the trigger.

So make your choice,
If you think she is worth it,
Listen to your inner voice,
Or be ignorant and forget.

Well I know what they say,
And her sound I do miss,
Darkness take me away,
For ignorance is bliss.

Seize the Day

I look into her eyes,
As the world stops turning,
It was no surprise,
We are always learning.

But her eyes remain,
So vibrant in my head,
As the words echo in my brain,
Every word she has said.

But I am naught,
Nothing more,
Yet she thought,
I had more in store.

I tried to understand,
Why anyone would want me,
I want to hold her hand,
And open my heart to let her see.

But I cannot,
And I must move on,
I've never meant a lot,
And soon I will be gone.

But be not afraid,
Let's seize the day,
So as we fade,
We can say:

"I know that you feel pain,
I hurt as well,
We are one and the same,
And we'll meet in Hell.

But it's okay,
We will be the few,
And finally I will be able to say,
I love you"

A Walk Away

Is it really so tough,
To just let go,
This path before me is rough,
And I know,

That I'll hurt,
And hold the pain to death,
One by one, my friends desert,
As I slowly stop stealing breath.

As my world comes crashing down,
I extend my hand to you,
You smile and I frown,
As you walk away on cue.

How can I just forget,
The day you walked away,
The last time I'll ever regret,
The blood I spilled that day.

Now your face,
Haunts me in my dreams,
Without a chance to embrace,
I fall apart at the seams.

You still have no clue,
Of how much pain I still endure,
I can hide all I want from the true,
I know there is no feasible cure.

Finding Our Way

When there is a road,
I will find our way,
What we had you sold,
You couldn't have me that day.

The cost of time,
Is obviously too much,
I guess waiting is a crime,
And should be treated as such.

But why do I,
Feel the same,
Why must I cry,
To stay in the game?

I can roll the dice,
But you will never budge,
Follow my own bad advice,
And hold my grudge.

We know I'll never win,
But I still waste my time away,
Never again,
Will my heart beat anyway.

The Key

In this moment,
So deadly still,
A feeling once dormant,
The crack may it fill.

This bellowing vibration,
That consumes the air,
A beauty of your creation,
Leaves me just to stare.

Bonded by these chains,
That bind my heart,
They say it was but simple strains,
But I know it was more from the start.

Something beyond which one may see,
Stowed away out of reach,
Is the key to set me free,
To retrieve it I beseech.

I have found the cure,
Hidden in your emotion,
It is beyond what one can infer,
And is fulfilled through devotion.

Maybe one day,
This dream will be true,
Love has its crazy way,
And the protagonist in this story is you.

The Thoughts of the Depressed

It is hard to tell you what is wrong,
When I feel like nothing is right,
How can I ever be strong,
If I am never willing to fight?

Sometimes we just need to run,
To see who will follow,
A bullet shot out of a gun,
So very tough to swallow.

There's a smile on my face,
That shouldn't be there,
I wear it to my disgrace,
Just for those who don't care.

The only thing standing between me and glee,
Is reality,
When despair is all we can see,
How do we turn our back on brutality?

Yet you still wonder,
Why I am never happy,
The answer is my blunder,
You know I always feel crappy.

I'm tired of trying,
Sick of crying,
I know I'm smiling,
But inside I'm dying.

Rising Above

Living in the past,
We act like no one should,
But this time will be our last,
For we will turn good.

We bite our nails,
Snort some coke,
Tell tall tales,
On lies we choke.

We sever our skin,
We drink all day,
We never win,
We aren't meant to be this way.

We have each other,
It is all we need,
Our temptations we can smother,
And plant our seed.

Filled with hope and desire,
We will change today,
Together we utilize our fire,
To light the way.

For we are much stronger,
Then we ever did know,
As we grow ever longer,
We rise out of this low.

Standing tall,
We are free,
We will never fall,
But forever we will be.

Final Decree

I just lay here,
Amidst this deafening silence,
This is my requiem of fear,
My own war of defiance.

With each and every breath,
I feel myself fade away,
A pain worse than death,
A heart of vanity and decay.

Everything seems so fake,
I'm so numb I can not feel,
They say you need to break,
Before you can heal.

But we know that I'm not the same,
I always skip step two,
I'm lost in the game,
And the only one who can help is you.

So join me in this final parade,
Together we will move the tallest mountain,
Dance behind our disguises to this masquerade,
We will live as one and may hope be our fountain.

Just keep the faith,
Together we will be,
Forever safe,
This is my final decree.

More Alive

The cracking of thunder,
Inside our brain,
Thoughts of our blunder,
Driving ourselves insane.

Your new best friends,
Are they there when you need them most?
Your failing self-confidence,
Are you still alive or are you just ghost?

The same questions,
Echoing in your head,
The same intentions,
To raise the dead.

But don't ever live in fear,
You should of always known,
For you know who will always be here,
How I will never let you be alone.

So take this to heart,
Hold your head high,
As the world falls apart,
Your tears remain dry.

For I won't let you cry,
Together we will survive,
Hand in hand we will never die,
But we will only become more alive.

Go On, If You Think No One Wants You

We live through our prime,
Searching for a purpose,
Only to realize over time,
That it is just a scratch in the surface.

We too easily forget,
That life is more then you and I,
Pain is just our outlet,
In which we choose to cry.

We are so selfish,
Pushing the blame away,
Living in anguish,
Making others our prey.

Sometimes it is better,
To take credit where due,
Like Jesus played letter,
The blame falls on you.

So hang on,
And look me in the eye,
You are just a pawn,
Is this how you want to die?

So go on and cry your eyes out,
Dig the blade deeper into your skin,
Live your life in doubt,
But without you no one would see my face again.

No one wants you,
Thats such a lie,
Never was true,
Without you I'd die.......

The Bleakening

Why must it hurt,
So much at the thought of her face,
Face down in the dirt,
Living in disgrace.

I like her,
I really do,
Emotions astir,
Why must I like you?

I thought I meant more,
Then to be thrown aside for later,
Now my will is sore,
And the pain couldn't get any greater.

I keep talking to you,
And with each and every word I grow weaker,
Just because what I feel is still true,
Even as my future grows bleaker.

Our Love is Forever

This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.

Don't be afraid to die,
Death will be our alibi,
The admission we buy,
It is worth us to try.

We won't let them win,
So with these chemicals we sin,
Put it back with a splash of gin,
And we will let our heads spin.

This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.

Lay down one last time,
Before we are finished with our little crime,
As the poison turns to chyme,
We get lost in rhyme.

Into each others eyes we stare,
This is the answer to our prayer,
This burden in which we bear,
Ends here for all we care.

This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.

We fade away together,
Through the worst of weather,
Our lives may sever,
But our love is forever.

Phail Frog

A girl I know,
Integrated from a far,
To you I will show,
My shining star.

A friend in which I love,
Who always has her counts,
Together we care of,
Phail Frog and B-Bounce.

We have rants,
Both of us seem to ramble,
Could talk for hours just about pants,
And if wearing them is a gamble.

Bursting into rap,
For no apparent reason,
Then going for a nap,
To us it's always sleeping season.

Together we plan,
Possible dates,
Just because we can,
As well as epic debates.

We talk about going for a run,
We should run through a puddle,
Then lay out in the sun,
Where together we could cuddle.

When I am falling,
She's ready to pounce,
Help without stalling,
Is the bestest friend of B-Bounce.

This is an ode,
To girl who loves to saw the log,
Together we'll never be cold,
For I love my Phail Frog.

A Pathetic Poetic

How do I choose,
Between right and wrong,
Either way I lose,
I was never that strong.

Just another guy,
So easily replaced,
Believing a lie,
Living in haste.

I can try and ignore,
Attempt to forget,
But it leaves my heart sore,
And full of regret.

I like her,
She says she likes me,
I let this occur,
I'm too blind to see.

I made my own Hell,
So fake and aesthetic,
I am depressed you can tell,
Just a pathetic poetic.

Melt Away

Take a breath,
Lost in time,
What is left.
Isn't mine.

Lay down,
Everything will be okay,
Sleep safe and sound,
While you fall away.

Lose the sorrow,
Drop the frown,
There for tomorrow,
Together we drown.

It is easy to see,
In our youth,
Your eyes speak to me,
It's the truth.

Alone,
We are shaken,
Here we are known,
As the forsaken.

So take my hand,
Together we are today,
Dance upon the sand,
Together we will melt away.

Well, Isn't This Romantic?

A light shining down,
Too bright for the eye to see,
Hidden in the smile beyond the frown,
It haunts me.

I wander as a vagrant,
To a heaven of my choice,
A place of salvation never flagrant,
In the depths of your voice.

I found a place,
Where they can never hurt you,
Free to live in grace,
A painted picture of a dream come true.

A place where nothings amiss,
A moment's reprieve,
Where you encounter myriad bliss,
Only known in make-believe.

This place exists,
A wonder we all think of,
Miracles are an endless list,
In the world of your love.

Vaster then the Atlantic,
Known by the few,
Well, isn't this romantic,
That I live just for you?

An Eternal Story

Soon the rain,
Will wash away the sun,
For our lives are vain,
When we don't act as one.

Strength in number,
In this case that of two,
Together we awake from this slumber,
Just me and you.

Together we pace,
Down a long winding road,
Vis-à-vis, face-to-face,
We take on a world so cold.

But be not afraid,
For the future is ours,
Though we may fade,
Our story remains inscribed in the stars.

Hand in hand,
We light up the sky,
Shine upon the sand,
We will never have to say goodbye.

A New Chapter

I was alone,
Wasting away,
Set in stone,
I thought I was that day.

A wandering nomad,
Long since forsaken,
A life so sad,
A mind so shaken.

But the light,
Entered through the door,
Blindingly bright,
My star evermore.

A new chapter,
May have begun,
Happily ever after,
With my shining sun.

Age is But a Number

A barricade,
Blocking my way,
I write this serenade,
To dream of the day.

For she,
Is worth the wait,
Completing me,
In the future she may create.

I wake at dawn,
And I feel once again,
The past is gone,
And this time it's real.

Here is my sign,
We are falling stars,
Leave what was left behind,
For this world is ours.

Save us,
From all the evil that we do,
Instill my trust,
Into you.

A deep sleep,
You will awake from your slumber,
Faith in you I keep,
For age is but a number.

A Life Self Haunted

Look in the mirror,
You fucking poetic,
Just look at that tear,
You are pathetic.

A lost cause,
Just another emo boy,
A permanent pause,
Your batteries are dead stupid toy.

Don't lie,
You know you're just another,
She doesn't care if you cry,
She doesn't want you brother.

You bleed,
For your own sanity,
It's all you need,
Live in your fucking vanity.

You know,
You're better off alone,
You need not grow,
Just cut to your bone.

This blade was made for you,
Use it to live a lie,
A payment long overdue,
Just lay there and die.

All this pain,
It will accumulate,
Dig into your brain,
Your person will mutilate.

No one will care,
You'll never be wanted,
Live in despair,
A life self haunted.

Wow, Brandon.

You're pathetic Brandon. Three weeks ago you didn't even know her..... Fucking weakling. You know that all they ever do is lead you on..... yet you just let them step all over you.... Fucking pushover. You're useless. And you fucking know it. Yet you hold onto your fucking emotions.you know no one will ever want you. You don't even want you. Go on and lie to yourself, Brandon. You know lies are all you have left.