What If I Told You

From the wreckage of your weather,
From the rubble of your game,
It has finally been pulled back together,
After over a year it still remains the same.

Destroyed by the decisions you made,
The choices you thought were right,
But reassembled by the bricks you laid,
If only you would accept it tonight.

What if I told you that even in death,
It still beats in hope of making a return,
What if I told you it took every last breath,
Just for the chance to yearn;

A chance to yearn for your voice,
To hear the sound that set the rhythm to its pace,
To give life to the dream we made our choice,
The dream you left without a trace.

They still wander in my mind,
Swinging life away,
They are the reason I endure the daily grind,
The ambition that fills my day.

Jeremy's spirit is so free,
And Brayden still calls out his mommy's name,
But he only has a daddy to see,
A daddy whose dream is the same.

What if I told you that I still dream,
Where the boys still live hoping to return,
What if I told you they were as real as they seem,
Holding on for a chance to learn:

To learn that the mommy that left them behind,
Actually never left them alone,
But rather was lost looking to find,
Searching for a better home.

But what if I told you that we could fall right back,
Into the life we left behind,
In the past we could lose track,
To the good times rewind.

Maybe to you this was a waste of time,
To me this couldn't be less true,
For me the only real crime,
Is the time I don't spend with you.

Even though I don't understand love,
I love you,
To say it forever wouldn't be long enough,
As time will never limit my gift to you.

I Tried So Hard

The end of the tunnel holds no light,
The wounds bound so tight,
Yet they can not seal,
The dark never has been able to heal.

Ever since I sought you out,
I've been thriving on doubt,
The doubt that led me to flat-lined hope,
The lie that makes it possible to cope.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

When words weren't what they meant,
How can this be any different,
An apology can't make amends,
For what you call just pretend.

This is not a game that you're playing,
This was my heart that you were swaying,
Leading it on once again,
To come to think you were my friend.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

Your presence never left my view,
Just thoughts plastered with portraits of you,
It just lingers in the abyss inside my heart,
The ever growing black pulling me apart.

You just refuse to leave,
As long as I still believe,
That you aren't just a drone,
That I never want to leave you alone.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

I try so hard to tell myself your gone,
I've tried so hard for so long,
But you remain with me through all of these years,
It is the lie born in you that fights away all of my tears.