Worth Defending

They will hold you back,
If you give them the chance,
You need to take risks,
To circumvent circumstance.

They speak what they call wisdom,
Because they spend their lives in fear,
Playing safe got them this far,
But they are too deaf to see, too blind to hear.

Get ready to cock your gun,
And sharpen up your knife,
They want to tell you that you can't,
Do what you want with your life.

So bare your teeth,
And tell them to stop pretending,
They think with their head not their heart,
While we know our dreams are worth defending.

We won't let them win,
We can surpass with pride,
While we face the world head-on,
They just try to hide.

When they get in your head,
You lose faith in the start,
They will stop you if you let em',
So never be the faint of heart.

Get ready to cock your gun,
And sharpen up your knife,
They want to tell you that you can't,
Do what you want with your life.

So bare your teeth,
And tell them to stop pretending,
They think with their head not their heart,
While we know our dreams are worth defending,
They're never ending, never ending.

But be not too tense,
Or you will fall, so be not tense,
Cause' no one but yourself will come to your defense.

See This Through

I miss the way you nudged me,
When laying with me at night.
I miss the way you'd kiss me,
It always convinced me I was alright.

But now that has past,
And I'm lost without you babe,
My sanity will never last,
If I wait any longer I'll not be safe.

I sleep alone every night,
And it's been killing me,
All my hopes are out of sight,
They are so hard to see.

I know I'm on the way out,
It plagues me so,
Without knowing all I think about,
You are letting me go.

Tell me what it takes to get to you,
Don't leave me debating,
I'll give my all to see this through,
If you let me, I'll be there waiting.

Roses in hand,
Waiting for your return,
But not forever can I stand,
In a world without the girl I yearn.

Please tell me everything will be alright.
I need to hear that so bad.
Toni's mom died, which is plaguing my mind without peace in sight.
She won't talk to me.
Hannahs avoiding me. Todays our one year. Fuck me.
I have nothing to do to distract me.
Tonis dating mason.

Nothing is right in my life.
No one is here to comfort me.
Just let me waste myself deeper in depression

I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you,
I miss you.

But you don't care.
You don't.
You've been in contact with him.
That hurt me most.

I'm not that important to you.
You don't like me anymore.
You won't let me find peace with your mom.
I cared more about her than youll ever know.
I can't just tell you that she's my mom too.
But I feel like that.
You really make me want to kill myself.
But I still miss you,
I still love you.
But all you do is keep me from being happy.
Only my death will make me happy.

Drink My Problems

I feel so lost,
In a world without you,
We seem to be star-crossed,
But what can I do.

You seem to be so close,
To him as we drift apart,
I feel like no one knows,
How I wish for any other heart.

This one will never last,
In a world that rejects mine,
It has been etched in the past,
That my heart is left behind.

Time to just drink my problems,
One for heartbroken and another for missing a friend,
I"ll never be able to solve them,
This pain will never end.

Like always you'll want him,
This dog never got his day,
Hopes light is wearing dim,
As my heart is fading away.

Am I the Guy You're Looking For?

I see it in your eyes,
And even more in your smile,
My heart never lies,
Even when separated by countless mile.

I'm so in love with you,
You can never take that away.
Does he see the same thing I do,
When he kisses you today?

While I sit at home staring into space,
Dreaming of you while he plays with your hair,
Wishing I could caress your face,
And constantly tell you how much I care.

How can I win your heart?
I don't have a clue;
You're a flawless work of art,
While I'm just a boy who is blue.

These dreams of us together,
In your dress white as snow,
Has me asking if you two will be forever,
I fear I'll never know.

I look around only to find,
All these girls don't feel right,
But when I think of you I see a gold mine,
Who will make me feel less alone at night.

I just want to lay next to you,
For the rest of my days,
Wake up and look into your pools of blue,
It'd make my living Hell feel like everything's okay.

But for now I'm cursed here,
As life has granted me an unholy fate,
Alone without you my dear,
Has left me at Hell's gate.

The loneliness has control of me,
Keeping me from opening the door,
I've been living my life waiting to see,
Hoping I'm the guy you're looking for.

Never Will I Make Her Proud

My heart gave out,
In a sea of rejection,
Looking for its way about,
Trying to correct my imperfection.

I tried so hard to face it together,
But you became furious,
My loneliness seems to last forever,
I can never feel delirious.

I'll never recover from this,
I'll never be the same again,
Can't ever return to a state of bliss,
Never will I believe in hope within.

I've learned you won't let me in,
My fate is all but set,
The sunshine will never rise again,
As it is drowning in regret.

All my tears are displaced,
Slowly taking the place of me on the floor,
My heart is now disgraced,
Upon this casket of closed doors.

I know I'm just an empty travesty,
I'll never make you or your parents proud,
I'm a walking tragedy,
To live I should not be allowed.

I'm the dullest tool,
Blind so I'll never see,
I was but a fool,
She'll never smile down at me.

I will always be a failure to her,
Both of them will hate me as they should,
They will never have to endure,
I should be gone for their own good.

Rest in Peace

I never knew you,
And you likely never knew that I exist,
There is something I have to do,
And to do this my heart insists.

Please know that your passing has impacted me,
More than a stranger could ever know,
I hope that you approve of what you see,
Because to make you proud, I want it so.

You'll always be on my mind,
As a great mother,
The world that you left behind,
Will remember you like no other.

The girl you raised,
Brought me to you,
For all your efforts you shall be praised,
And I'll always keep that true.

Please rest in peace,
And let us meet in the after life,
I hope you accept me and release,
If I get to have your daughter as my wife.

But no matter what,
I will remember you forever,
Your loss is such a deep cut,
But it will eventually draw us together.

In loving memory of Tracy Oda Wilson

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
-David Harkins

The Heart is Not a Well

They tell me to move one inch at a time,
And just move on forward,
I am a lemon in a world for a lime,
Where is the light to head toward?

My heart's not a well,
They think it won't run dry,
Into it I have fell,
Emptying the water I cry.

Just keep drinking the water,
And they say it'll be alright,
When all I have left is my stepfather,
How can I sleep safely at night?

Without you I have no family,
To call out my name,
My hope crumbles so brittlely,
After tonight I'll never be the same.

This well is running out,
Eventually I'll no longer be able to cry,
What is left to be happy about,
When my heart's run dry?

How Can I?

You don't like me anymore,
Is all I remember you telling me,
No more waiting for,
You to break me free.

I'd do anything for you,
You know that I would,
All light has faded before the true,
The love never faded, though it should.

How can I say that I'm me,
While everything is breaking,
It's become so easy to see,
That I'm not okay, I'm shaking.

While I'm out here alone,
Waiting for someone to be my savior,
Someone to stabilize my backbone,
But that is too big of a favor.

A parasitic cyst,
Upon her I feed,
Her kiss so desperately missed,
Curse to Hell my greed.

How can I say that I'm me,
While everything is breaking,
It's become so easy to see,
That I'm not okay, I'm shaking.

I just can't breath enough,
When I am not the one,
I need her love,
Like a plant needs the sun.