Ghost of You

I look at you now,
And I hold my breath,
I've given you all,
You've given me less.

I gave you my heart,
And all my respect,
You throw me away,
What did I expect?

Just a ghost of you,
Left to hold,
What can I do,
As my arms grow cold.

If time is out,
Than what can I do?
Now I only cry and pout,
Before the ghost of you.

I've been trying way too long,
To try and find my place,
When you ignore me when I try to snuggle,
Leaves such a bitter taste.

I remember when you'd happily share the affection,
The way you made me feel so lucky,
That's all gone now,
And every night my eyes go yucky.

Just a ghost of you,
Left to hold,
What can I do,
As my arms grow cold.

If time is out,
Than what can I do?
Now I only cry and pout,
Before the ghost of you.

The tears need to be washed,
But you never want to be the same,
My dreams haunt my thought,
Waiting for you to call my name.

The ghost of you,
Will be the death of me,
The ghost of you,
Is making the ghost of me.

Stuck

I am stuck as the shoulder,
When she knows I want much more,
Upon my heart sits a one ton boulder,
What the hell am I waiting for?

I can hold up a shield,
But eventually I must explain,
How I want her needs revealed,
Before I am consumed by its pain.

The blood runs through us both,
But hear my cries if she may,
Please take my oath,
That we would not be another cliche.

I am stuck as the shoulder,
When she knows I want much more,
Upon my heart sits a one ton boulder,
What the hell am I waiting for?

Hostage

That gun isn't so intimidating,
Is this normal in the world I live in?
This false courage I am creating,
Can never hide the fear within.

Staring down your barrel,
Will not change my mind,
I'll endure your every peril,
This time I won't leave it behind.

Keep me hostage as long as you must,
We all need to fight the fight,
It takes time to create the trust,
That will make everything alright.

I need to crack the lock,
That holds the chains around me,
You don't have many tricks in stock,
But I have no where to flee.

I'll bite the bullet,
If that is what it will take,
The strength to pull it through,
Will be enough to break you.

Keep me hostage as long as you must,
We all need to fight the fight,
It takes time to create the trust,
That will make everything alright.

You will no longer hold back,
The once weak boy you knew before,
Upon your surface I'll break through the crack,
And walk right out that door.

You won't stop me now,
I'll keep heading in her direction,
I will not bow,
Until we share faces in reflection.

Buried Within the Debris

This is not as easy for me,
Act like there is enough in store,
It is plain in my eye to see,
That I just want more.

You should know by now,
That I want you to be mine,
I just don't know how,
Sign my name away on the dotted line.

I make sacrifices for you,
But how long can I live with just playing letter,
Playing myself off out of view,
In hopes of something better.

Eventually I hope you find in me,
What my heart found in you,
Something special buried within the debris,
Something special long overdue.

Your happiness is all I want,
I don't care as much for my own,
You have no clue the way these boys haunt,
My dreams turn into nightmares as my heart turns to stone.

Sacred Oath

I've been such a dick to us both,
But what if you can't forget it?
I've swayed more than once from our sacred oath,
My dark passenger has been nothing but cynic.

Now I'm just gonna try and cope,
I know the past I can't conceal,
Where the hell's my hope,
When it's so hard to deal?

I just need to take this more slow,
My speed is just outrageous,
The pain pulled us into the undertow,
It is just so contagious.

I've been such a dick to us both,
But what if you can't forget it?
I've swayed more than once from our sacred oath,
My dark passenger has been nothing but cynic.

Once again I'll put my faith in you,
Gratified,
I give you my heart too,
I just hope you're satisfied.

I'm Far Too Afraid

I'm far too afraid,
Of how my words feel so mean,
To my dark passenger I'm enslaved,
It is just too hard to come clean.

The separation I have made,
From the feeling we once shared,
I'm far too afraid,
Of how little it seems I've cared.

I hate the way this sits,
In this burying flood,
It is the pain that fits,
In the mess of boiling blood.

We've made a mess of things,
My, what a mess I've caused,
And the feeling just stings,
How the happiness we've lost.

I'm far too afraid,
To smile or even wish,
As a dizzy dreamer I prayed,
That my life wouldn't end up like this.

I'm far too afraid,
Of the future and past,
In life I have a failing grade,
It can never last.

I hate the way this sits,
In this burying flood,
It is the pain that fits,
In the mess of boiling blood.

We've made a mess of things,
My, what a mess I've caused,
And the feeling just stings,
How the happiness we've lost.

There is nothing to believe of,
When your eyes have only cried,
I need your love,
Like a boy needs his mother's side.

An End or a Beginning

Where is the person I thought I knew,
That once held me so high,
The one whose hand wore through,
The blood spills from our last goodbye.

The words used to hold me together,
Pulled me into the arms of love,
What once felt right now has met the sever,
What the hell did I used to think of.

I used to trust your voice,
Until I found out it was made of lies,
You left me without a choice,
You should of had better alibis.

Moving on has never been easy,
All these secrets you used to keep,
The thought of your face now makes me queasy,
My heart just can't find its sleep.

I need a place to call my heart's home,
As I am always on the move,
A place that stays constant while my body may roam,
And someone whose voice can soothe.

Bring peace to my mind,
Give me a new start,
Who knows who I might find,
Someone so close might be the final piece to my heart.