Inside Your Arms

The night is spinning faster,
Spinning out of my control,
Exploding into disaster,
Pieces breaking from the whole.

A walk on a bed of broken glass,
But the cuts are never too deep,
They told me my hope would never last,
That my dreams are locked tight in the arms of sleep.

And those dreams never come true,
Outside of fairy tale,
Who I will grow up into,
Will only know how to fail.

Fail at holding onto all I know,
Standing up for what I truly believe,
I give my all with nothing to show,
But the shards of the organ upon my sleeve.

I'd give it all away,
The knowledge I possess,
The writing that gets me through the day,
If I would never live in this mess.

Give up everything that I have for one day,
Where I know what it feels like to be whole,
To feel like someone feels the same way,
All I want is to live my life full.

But I've been running on empty far too long,
Searching for the moment where happiness is within my reach,
Swimming to shore but the currents too strong,
Drowning in the undertow longing for the beach.

The beach where I could rest my head,
Inside the arms of all I need, truly, madly, deep,
The feeling of love where loneliness is dead,
Inside your arms, the unlocked arms of sleep.

World of Wonder

I'm finding my own way,
Ashes in my hair,
The path led me astray,
Destination unknown, don't know where.

I'm moving mountains in search for nothing,
Nothing but the hope I once held,
That special something,
That with her I felt.

But I've come to find,
That feeling you radiate,
Is more pungent then the one I left behind,
In this new world you create.

But in this world of wonder,
To impress is harder,
I can swim towards thunder,
But you expect me to walk on water.

Luckily it's not really that difficult,
To achieve the impossible,
By your side I could catch a lightning bolt,
You make me feel unstoppable.

And these ashes that litter the past,
In your rays they melt away,
The pain will never last,
In our world of wonder we will stay.

Even If I'm Not Okay

It's three in the morning,
And your response hit without warning,
Maybe you're right,
But it doesn't feel so tonight.

I wander through the cold,
In a stranglehold,
Looking for the answer to my feeling,
Why couldn't it stay concealing?

You still haunt my dreams,
Tearing them apart at the seams,
How can I sleep when I'm afraid,
In the dark the light did fade.

I've come to find that I was right,
That feeling wasn't born in trite,
And rejection isn't good in health,
You make it hard to be honest with even myself.

But I'll say I'm okay,
Even if I'm not okay,
Because our friendship is all I have left to lose,
I hate when between you and my heart I must choose.

This charade will never last,
Within my walls I'm repeating past,
If I understand do not ask,
Just pick the poison and pour me a glass.

I'll do anything to prove it true,
To make you believe that all I want is you,
That beyond my skin and bone,
I don't want to live with my heavy burden all alone.

When I Woke Up

I don't know what to say,
Or if it's worth revealing,
I'm afraid of what may,
So I've left it in my heart concealing.

Affection pours from your heart,
A rain of sunshine and confusion,
I had trouble from the start,
Figuring out if you're just another illusion.

Your smile ever gleaming in my eyes,
Penetrates my fear,
It dries the tears born in my cries,
And leaves me holding you dear.

Holding you closer than you even know,
I refuse to let go of the rope you threw out to me,
How much longer until my feeling will show,
And find out that in my dreams, you're all I see.

I could stare into your eyes all night,
And lose track of the time finding the right words to say,
But there are no words that bring justice to this reborn light,
That replaced the darkness that dissipated my hope away.

I could live under a bridge through the most brutal cold,
With nothing else to call my own,
And still feel like I have everything in my hold,
Because you're the reason why I'm home.

Home is not a place,
But a comforting feeling we find,
I found it when I woke up to your face,
That moment will never leave my mind.

I'm trying my best to show you,
All that you mean to me,
But I've come to learn that words just won't do,
There are no words strong enough to express the way you set me free.

Eclipsing in Conversation

You're signals are confusing,
An answer is no where to be seen,
These actions you're choosing,
I don't know what they mean.

The way you stretched out to me,
Your moves brought paralysis,
I didn't know how I was supposed to be,
What should I make of this?

The re-encounter is on the way,
What will be born of this relation,
The color is blurred in gray,
But we are eclipsing in conversation.

The days are counting down,
Until we meet once more,
I admit, around you it's hard to frown,
But what is left in store?

Hanging On

You just want to be done,
All that you keep inside you want to be numb,
I wish I was a good enough friend,
That I could bring your pain to an end.

You can't come to grips that she's gone,
Sometimes tragedy keeps us holding on;
Hanging onto what means the most to our hearts,
Is all we know to do when our world falls apart.

The pain caged inside is released in different ways,
But we can't be honest about it these days;
Not even with ourselves,
We just hope that we can find help.

Deep down our regrets eat away,
And we don't notice it causing decay,
When we notice it is far too late,
What we once had is lost to pseudofate.

I can't help if you don't let me,
I need your trust to try and flee,
The Toni that is waiting inside,
Hand in hand with the love that died.

Theatrical Lines

My dreams keep me awake at night,
'Cause they're stained with portraits of your face,
I know you're with him, this just isn't right,
Everything seems so meaningless and out of place.

The "beautiful" world has forsaken me I guess,
I'm blanketed only by my own tears,
I know but one way out of this mess,
But suicide is something I'd rather not mention here.

Why did you leave me?
I tried so hard to be all I could,
I admired your true beauty,
But I'm left misunderstood.

I'd wait outside your door,
With apologies tied up in a bouquet,
I'd give you the knife in my bottom drawer,
Even if I was not okay.

'Cause when you held my hand,
I didn't have another care,
But now you hold another man's,
And I don't know how long I can fare.

You promised you'd wait,
But broke it after only a few day,
The broken promise brought us to this state,
How could you leave me this way?

Do I have to use theatrical lines,
Just to get a glance?
Who was there for you in the hard times,
You now leave in a fetal stance.