Part of the Cast

I hide behind this face,
Tears heavier than can be weighed,
My heart is a disgrace,
With all the blood its paid.

My depression is hard to approach,
Deceit and emptiness holding a grudge,
It crawls in like a cockroach,
No one can ever seem to make it budge.

I never pull myself out,
When my head is below the wave,
My will is too shallow and stout,
And my heart is short of brave.

I'd rather deal with pain,
Just let it control me,
With scars my skin it stains,
So easy to see.

I'm sorry for the scars,
And how I take forever to heal,
Laying under the stars,
You must know how it is all so real.

The universe is vast,
Most of it is empty space,
I'm a part of that cast,
And for now, that is what you need embrace.