I Tried So Hard

The end of the tunnel holds no light,
The wounds bound so tight,
Yet they can not seal,
The dark never has been able to heal.

Ever since I sought you out,
I've been thriving on doubt,
The doubt that led me to flat-lined hope,
The lie that makes it possible to cope.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

When words weren't what they meant,
How can this be any different,
An apology can't make amends,
For what you call just pretend.

This is not a game that you're playing,
This was my heart that you were swaying,
Leading it on once again,
To come to think you were my friend.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

Your presence never left my view,
Just thoughts plastered with portraits of you,
It just lingers in the abyss inside my heart,
The ever growing black pulling me apart.

You just refuse to leave,
As long as I still believe,
That you aren't just a drone,
That I never want to leave you alone.

I led you out of the grave you dug,
I did it all in the name of love,
I made your dreams into reality,
At the cost of my own morality.

But that didn't make you fall in love,
It's never enough,
I tried so hard to tell myself I was through,
But it was never enough to let go of you.

I try so hard to tell myself your gone,
I've tried so hard for so long,
But you remain with me through all of these years,
It is the lie born in you that fights away all of my tears.