Bury Me, I'm Useless

"Move on, you lost,"
Yet I can't let go at any cost,(I'm not cheap)
She almost is in love with him,
The light at the end of the tunnel is past dim. (for light I weep)

It's burnt out,
Like a field during drought, (there is no rain)
He took my wife, my name,
And now me and her feel the same. (it's driving me insane)

Both of us feel this way,
Happiness never will see the light of day, (locked up tight)
My hourglass's sand is running dry,
And my heart is not a fan of goodbye.(to stay feels more right)

I guess I had my chance,
At happy romance, (I guess I'm only a joke)
But like always I came up short,
My hope's and dream's mother chose to abort. (they're up in smoke)

I try to catch my breath,
But there's no air left, (my lungs are failing)
I've become so weak,
I can not speak. (communication isn't smooth sailing)

I can't find will,
In anything outside of pill, (difference in the dose)
The morning is drawing near,
The end is almost here. (I have hours at most)

How can I relax at home,
When home is gone and I'm all alone,(in an empty room)
The silence consumes my soul,
The fight in me is stole. (I feel the doom)

It's so cold that I'm shaking,
By these thoughts I am making, (I'm out of touch)
Your head on his chest,
Himself between your breast. (it hurts so much)

The American dream,
Tearing apart at the seam, (it once was vivid)
And I don't know what to do,
It is me, it isn't you. (I am just livid)

As the blood floods up to the hip,
I taste misery while you taste his lip, (how does it taste?)
Brandon's got a new blade,
To it he's a slave. (his blood is a waste)

Carving him to bone,
Empty useless carcass all alone, (always wasn't worth the time)
What did I do to deserve,
To be kicked to the curb? (falling in love is a crime)

I don't wanna be in love anymore,
Where is the girl I still adore? (to me she was perfect)
The innocent girl is headed towards whore,
While I'm displacing tears on my lonely bedroom floor. (is the pain worth it?)

You had my heart,
And you ripped it apart,(smashed it into pieces)
Over and over you broke me,
Now end it, please choke me. (asphyxiation releases)

The memories are using me,
While the love is abusing me, (in a stranglehold)
The feeling you use to show me will never leave my mind,
The memory of our future, pushes me into the casket you leave behind. (heart left cold)