All Along

You have no clue,
How much this is felt,
I know not what to do,
With the cards I have been dealt.

 I sit here through the night,
Counting the tears upon my chest,
Trying to find what's right,
Trying to lay this part of me to rest.

I thought we might have something deep,
But you were no different than them,
It's been days since I've found sleep,
All because I lost my rings gem.

I lost a piece I refused to reveal,
The piece of me that I let you keep,
Now I'm left knowing not how to feel,
I try to open my mouth but I can't speak.

You had to pull me apart,
When you took me by the hand,
Played the role with the good girl heart,
To leave me behind in the sand.

Leaving me to face the raging tide,
That now is burying me at sea,
I just started to confide,
To let you have me.

But now at the bottom of the ocean,
I am now long gone,
I'm drowning in the water of my emotion,
Is this what you wanted, all along?