To Keep Myself from Me

I wish I had the strength,
To tell you what I hide,
I'd go to great length,
To show you confide.

I can't fight this anymore,
But it's already too late,
I lost what I was fighting for,
And have acquired this fate.

A fate that is left unspoken,
As  I can't seem to bring it to words,
I'm laying here broken,
It all seems so absurd.

I'd give up everything,
Just to feel you one last time,
To make me feel that something,
That needs neither reason nor rhyme.

All it needed was feeling,
Something to bring my heart to a beat,
To give me wings to break through the ceiling,
And find my way to my feet.

The feeling that I was afraid to show,
To you who held the key,
Yet you never got to know,
That you had a hold of me.

But you found something better,
A different fish in the sea,
Now I'm left with nothing but letter,
To keep myself from me.