Meh.

Have you ever felt like this,
When a day starts good and ends with hopes to be dead?
You may re-encounter someone you miss,
But you won't be able to go on until you bled.

You know it will only get worse,
But I have to step aside,
I must live with this curse,
Even if kills me inside.

I will support you,
But myself will fall,
I don't know what to do,
When my will isn't left at all.

I can't try to control,
Just watch and bleed,
Even if the blades dull,
It is all I'll need.

I hold regret,
Towards the ones who care,
But I can't forget,
How her ways will tear.

I only live for you now,
I can't leave you behind,
I don't know how,
I will ever take back my mind.

Just go back to my ways,
To keep me alive,
I won't live again for these days,
Instead I'll just survive.



I deserve it. Fuck it. I'm meant to be this way I guess.