When the Begininning Becomes an End

"I know this hurts you,
But I feel like I must,
It is what I do,
And in you I trust.

I miss my days as a kid,
When the world was flawless,
But I grew up in a skid,
And I want to again be careless.

I want her so bad,
Is it a crime to be in love?
I know it may make you sad,
But to me it is a blessing from above.

I do this for me,
God helps those who help themselves,
This is who I want to be,
Even if it hurts yourself."

I know you want this,
And think this is meant from above,
But just because you feel it in her kiss,
Doesn't mean you're in love.

Careless is what you have become,
To act young you're in such a hurry,
It has became your custom,
To be too young to worry.

But you still are a kid,
Even though the world has changed,
And all the ways you did,
Just left the true you disarranged.

I know you never will believe me,
Because you convinced yourself that you're right,
But this just isn't meant to be,
And I'll stick by that as long as I am in the light.

I know where this will end,
With you hurt where you breakdown and cry,
I hate to tell you my friend,
But when it does happen I will die.

I am just dragging you down anyways,
So I guess it won't be too bad,
You'll see better days,
When I am not around to be sad.