Check Me Off Your List

It is so hard to move on,
So difficult to relax,
If I turn my head you could be gone,
I still feel like that's the fact.

You'd be in the arms of a guy,
What happened to the care I used to see,
How hard do I have to try,
For faithfulness to me?

Can I ever feel secure,
When my love to you is a waste,
Your words feel so impure,
And in my heart I feel replaced.

It is too late now,
The pain is afflicted,
Searching for an answer not knowing how,
To live without you when I'm addicted.

The audience has stopped clapping,
They know I can not just get by,
They can't tell if I'm laughing,
'Cause every other word there is a tear in my eye.

I will stay with you forever,
But is that long enough,
Can I pull myself together,
To make it through the rough.

I am so careless of my heart,
I'm sure that was the reason I was stung,
I tear myself apart,
With your clumsy tongue.

If I give all that I can,
If I can actually persist,
Will you choose to hold my hand,
Or cross me off the list?