Harmony Convos. We really have each others back. [:

Me being there. (:

Brandon says:
....
are you ok?
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
yea..
Brandon says:
what you just posted on your blog says otherwise.....
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
im fine.
Brandon says:
you sure? i am really concerned
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
i'll survive..
Brandon says:
i know
it just hurts me to see people like this
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
I'm sorry..
Brandon says:
people care
i feel you are lying to yourself
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
Or I just know what people realy think.
Brandon says:
-.-
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
I'm just pessimistic.
Brandon says:
harmony....
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
I vent sometimes.
Brandon says:
yea....
but believe it or not i am person, i care, and i dont hate you, you're not a bitch, and i infact want you here
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
makes one person.
Brandon says:
one person can make all the difference
do you think anyone really likes me?
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
i do.
Brandon says:
in real life now one does
no one
they use me
and when it becomes inopertune they turn their back
they dont give a shit
and that one person that actually is there
can make all the difference
it provides reason to be
your will
you let it stall
the air so still
i will catch your fall
your faltered smile
it brings me sorrow
i search for reconcile
in hope to fix it tomorrow
your blood
it spills
you let it it flood
the thought.... it kills
just close your eyes
you WILL find salvation
in your broken sighs
we will end this fixation
you can make it out
i know you can do it
i have no doubt
just never let yourself forefeit
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
what if i dont want to anymore.. what if i dont care, and i just.. can't handle anything anymore..
Brandon says:
no longer
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
what if i gave up long ago..
Brandon says:
will you suffer alone
you're only getting stronger
from these seeds that have been sewn
you really want to give up that easy?
i, myself, have said ive given up far too many times
in fact let me tell you
on st patricks day 2007
i had the biggest let down of my life
this girl...
i had loved her so much
and i found out she liked me two weeks previous
she was my light
i had longed for so long
i finally got the courage to go up and ask her what would have made my life complete
she told me she would think about it
an hour later i was walking up to my 6th hour class
right there
she was right next to the class
swapping spit with another guy
never had i felt so cold.
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
..that's heartbreaking.
Brandon says:
i lost all hope that very moment
i tried so hard to fight the tears
i couldnt..
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
what a bitch..
that hurts..
Brandon says:
that night
i laid in my bed
knife in hand
i had it up to my throat
i decided to give up on myself
and do what i felt was self-righteous
just as i started to press it against my neck i got a call
it was from her
she was worried
she knew how much i liked her
but she had previously fallen for him when she was in band camp
she didnt know how to break the news to me
she hadnt known my class was there
she talked me out of it
she is the only reason im alive today
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
woah.
Brandon says:
this situation is different, yes
but you should never give up hope
ever
and just the thought of anyone that does
brings tears to my eyes
reminding me of my own ignorance i posessed that day
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
it's so.. difficult..
Brandon says:
i know you are stronger then that
i know you can prevail
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
i know i can be too, but i just.. can't, anymore.
Brandon says:
but you have to have hope
i have faith in you
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
i dont know how you do this.
to me.
>.<
thanks..
it means alot..
Brandon says:
do what?
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
the whole.. story thing.. idk
you actually affected me.
Brandon says:
the thought of it brings me much depression
but i believe my own mistakes should be used to learn from
and if i think it can help someone
i grin and bear it
but seriously
other then her and you
no one knows about it
* harmony - Cause the view from below, gives me no hope, you know.. says:
people eventually learn to learn from their mistakes.. it's life. so we dont do the same mistakes & regret it even more.
really..
Brandon says:
just dont let yourself become what i was that day
i like you a lot, and if that happened to you, i seriously do not know what i would do
* harmony - Cause the view from below, gives me no hope, you know.. says:
I love how we just met yesterday..
And are already this close..
Brandon says:
this maybe
but one day can be the difference in your life
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
already is,
otherwise i prolly would've slit my throat or something already...
Brandon says:
i know you still arent through
but never give up hope
ever
i promise you this, until the day i die, you will always have at least someone who cares, ever so much, and is willing to sit down and make sure you know they have faith in you
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
okay..
Brandon says:
dont fall victim to yourself
you will prevail
i promise
now i need to sleep
* harmony - I love to hate myself.. says:
okay


Harmony being there

Brandon says:
but i cant fucking pull this off.
* hαrмony ;; says:
yes you can
i believe in you, brandon sussex
Brandon says:
well thats one more person then should.
i dont even fucking believe in myself anymore.
* hαrмony ;; says:
i dont believe in myself either.
but i believe in you
and i know you can make it through
i promise you can.
you're a strong guy
you just dont know it .
Brandon says:
nor will i ever know it.
* hαrмony ;; says:
yes you will.
Brandon says:
i let myself be walked all over.
by any and everyone
weak willed.
* hαrмony ;; says:
then stand up for yourself for once.
it's easier to let yourself be walked all over i know
but dont let that happen
Brandon says:
after being trampled i lack the power.
* hαぢмony ;; says:
you'll get more strength once you get up from the ground.
Brandon says:
ever time i stand up the ground only crumbles below me and i fall farther.
the crutches tend to break underneath me
* hαrмony ;; says:
build a bridge.
Brandon says:
i try
and it collapses
* hαrмony ;; says:
built it stronger.
i'll help you build it.
i'll walk across it first to see if it's safe.
Brandon says:
harmony.... believe it or not, i think you are the only person who hasnt let me down really.
thank you.
* hαrмony ;; says:
everyone needs that kinda friend.
you're welcome.
Brandon says:
-hugs tightly-
* hαrмony ;; says:
-tackles-