Denial

Maybe I'm just afraid,
That I will lose you this way,
I think to you I might fade,
I just wish you could stay.

I risk my love,
By letting you go,
Let you let someone else take you above,
And I know.

You will not feel the same,
I will no longer get your hand,
Like always I'll lose the game,
My blood will soak this land.

But what's the use,
Of holding onto you,
I'll lose my muse,
But what's new?

For you won't like me forever,
No one will,
I'll have you never,
A pain no pill can kill.

Lost it all,
Swatted away like flies,
This is my fall,
As tonight my hope dies.

But why must I preach,
Will I ever just quit?
To your heart I'm just a leech,
I'll admit.

I know I'm not enough,
To really make you smile,
You are the diamond I am the rough,
The only reason you won't let go is denial.....