Liar

Your hand I want to hold,
But for now I don't deserve this,
Though it makes my heart feel cold,
It makes me feel so nervous.

I feel like I've done you wrong,
Since he changed it all,
A blink and it is gone,
Through the crack we fall.

Look at what I've done,
I've ruined what we once cherished,
What happened to when we were one,
Before all freedom perished.

It used to be you and I,
And we could be together,
We always were able to try,
And dream of being forever.

Now restrained by chain and lock,
I try and hide from how I feel,
A wall built rock by rock,
For my pain to conceal.

I am such a liar,
For saying I want you two to be,
You may of poured the gasoline but I started the fire,
I never wanted for you to be with he.